All the fun of postpartum without the hassle of a cute newborn.

Like seeing crap like this in the drain after a shower.
Ew.

Yup.  The whole postpartum hair falling out thing.  Either that, or the Hashimoto’s is acting up again.  (Or it could be the fact that I only shower about once a month.  Naaaah.)



And ohhhhh, the mood swings!

And no, I’m not even getting a decent amount of sleep, because, apparently, I’m a moron.

(Also, Conan is funny. I <3 Conan.)

And I recently realized something: DAMN, my website has been depressing lately!

Have you noticed? I have.

So I wasn’t really all that surprised to see my feed reader subscription count massively dropping here and there last week.  I mean, who wants to keep being brought down?  Depressed?  Reminded of their own mortality? *click*

Certainly not people who enjoy looking at pictures of poop.  “We need sarcastic rants and disgusting potty humor, Lotus, come ON!”

And I know I haven’t been showering much lately, either, but that should really only be affecting John and Braden.  You, my lovely readers, should have no reason to claim I brought on any sudden wretching impulses. Until I show you pictures of my unshaven legs. Or maybe even my armpits. Anyone want to see my unshaven armpits? No? Fine, suit yourselves.

Hahaha.

But, honestly…

Sixty of you jumping ship in one day alone?  Really?  Was there a “Dude, Lotus Sucks” Convention somewhere that day?  There was punch and pie, wasn’t there?  You bastards.*

A few nights ago, I was lying in bed with John, lamenting to him about the loss of feed readers shortly before sleep mercifully overcame our toddler-beaten bodies.

The next morning, I woke up to find The Number of The Beast on my feed reader count.

And I just thought, “Really?  Great.  Awesome.”



At least Satan’s still reading.






*Because calling my audience bastards will REALLY help improve the chances of my being able to maintain a following. I’m SMART like that.





88 comments


  • hang in there, i still enjoy reading

    janelle’s last blog post..Weekly Winners

    May 22, 2008
  • It was a fluke of course. Feedburner must have had a glitch. Yep, that’s it.

    Summer’s last blog post..Biking With A Buddy

    May 22, 2008
  • Umm. Is it wrong to say that I snorted at Satan reading your blog? That was funny.
    Anyhow, it was probably just the immature readers. And that leaves room for people like me, who won’t comment if you have over 20 comments, ’cause that’s just way too much!
    Feel better, Lotus, but take your time too. Nothing wrong with that.

    alicia’s last blog post..Fro Me to You–Twins Edition

    May 22, 2008
  • Maybe that’s why I have no readers! LOL I eventually just posted in my blog that if you don’t want to hear me bitch than don’t come to my blog. :)

    Joy’s last blog post..Meeting at Sanura’s School

    May 22, 2008
  • Mackenzie's Momma

    I’m still here! I just dont have time to comment anymore between the ducks, the kids(goats), the toddler, and life.

    May 22, 2008
  • My feedburners subscriptions went all funky last week too – I think it’s a problem with them rather than you honey ;)

    Marylin’s last blog post..Blah

    May 22, 2008
  • I’m still lurking around here….just don’t comment much. It’s totally understandable that you’ve not been “Miss Happy Pants”…the bastards can get a life. Real life just sux sometimes. Hang in there!
    Hugs!

    lilknitter’s last blog post..Tuesday Stuff

    May 22, 2008
  • *snicker* satan reading your blog

    bet it was a glitch that made your stats go out of whack.

    And if it wasn’t………… meh………. fair weather readers are fickle bastards aren’t they?

    Bettina’s last blog post..Weak Evidence Aye?

    May 22, 2008
  • anja

    Of course Satan reads your blog. I invited him over. He thinks it’s pretty cool.

    anja’s last blog post..HELP!

    May 22, 2008
  • Deeg

    Actually Lil Miss Lotus…You gained one :) I just discovered bloglines for the first time the other day and you were one of the first blogs I put on there…..

    I betcha its just some sorta glitch in this here doohickey contraption that made 60 go woosh in one day.

    Thats my story…and Im sticking to it….

    oh yeah, and insomnia rules…i finally have time to comment on blogs!

    amok amok amok!!!

    Deeg’s last blog post..Yes, I am still around

    May 22, 2008
  • Yeah, my feedburner stats were all over the place last week too. I went from having lost 30+ readers, to having lost up to 80+ readers.

    And seriously, I don’t have enough readers to lose them like that!

    So, feedburner was glitchy and everyone still loves you.

    Especially me. Lots.

    Veronica’s last blog post..Updates

    May 22, 2008
  • First of all, the hairball pic did make me gag, although I triple dawg dare you to show us a pic of the unshorn armpits.
    Seriously, I really triple dawg dare you.

    And also, don’t be too bummed. Loyal readers are the ones that stick with you through the ups AND the downs. Besides, when you’re like me and have a total of maybe 12 readers, losing sixty seems almost impressive.

    lilacspecs’s last blog post..It’s Eurovision Time!

    May 22, 2008
  • I wasnt invited to the D.L.S. convention either AND I heard they had really good tee shirts and goodie bags!

    MizFit’s last blog post..Viewer Mail (warning. long post ahead. please to grab a protein-rich snack/some water.)

    May 22, 2008
  • Z

    Still here. Still subscribed. But if there were cool goodie bags at the D.L.S. convention, as MizFit just mentioned? Dude, I would so have been there. I love me some goodie bags… But I love me some Lotus, too, so it would have been a real tough call ;)

    Z’s last blog post..Jumping Off the Bridge

    May 22, 2008
  • river

    Still reading here, just not commenting as much. Seems a bit pointless to just repeat what everyone else has already said. Still luvs ya. Heh Satan has good taste…….

    May 22, 2008
  • Sorry, Satan is too busy to read today. He’s preparing the guest room for me & the wife

    Xbox4NappyRash’s last blog post..A warning to the txt generation

    May 22, 2008
  • I’m still here as I believe most people are. Don’t worry about bringing other people down dear. I would much rather read weeks and weeks of someone working through grief vs. a blog of someone not being genuine! You are a human and can’t be expected to entertain everyone all of the time! Blog on!

    AnnD’s last blog post..W O R D L E S S W E D N E S D A Y

    May 22, 2008
  • I blame Feedburner quirks. Anytime there is that large of a jump or drop, it’s usually skewed stats on their part.

    It’s OK, we’re all still here. Now if I could just figure out where all of my site traffic has gone for the past week. You think Sitemeter is also malfunctioning, cause my stats are in the crapper.

    Christina’s last blog post..A Birthday Party Quandary

    May 22, 2008
  • I dunno what kind of silly buggers is going on, but yahoo and twitter were down, so I just kind of expected feedburner to blow up too. It didn’t notice the small potatoes like me. Sixty gone would nearly wipe me out.

    witchypoo’s last blog post..To The Rescue!

    May 22, 2008
  • I’m still reading :) You DESERVE this time, Lotus, & if anyone can’t understand that, what kind of human being are they? I mean REALLY! Take all the time that you need & your readers that are loyal & CARE will still be here :)

    Connie’s last blog post..American Idol Faceoff

    May 22, 2008
  • Wow, I really hate the hair loss. I swear to gawd that it took almost 2 years for mine to stop coming out in clumps like that. (Yet surprisingly, I’m still not bald.) Don’t worry about the people who jumped ship, they are just fair weather friends. Although I must admit, I’m disappointed in my Internet counterparts. Who just walks away from someone because they hit a low point? I wonder if that’s a window for their ‘real’ lives. Because seriously, that’s just sad.

    AmyM’s last blog post..Photobloggin’ it

    May 22, 2008
  • Hey Lotus-

    That picture? More hair than I have left on my whole head.

    ;-b

    Ree’s last blog post..I’m gonna prove every word I say

    May 22, 2008
  • Well those that jumped ship aren’t worth worrying over. You still have many loyal readers willing to let you grieve in your own time.

    *huggles*

    Sarah’s last blog post..Words we never wanted to hear…The truths I didn’t want to face
    Twitter:

    May 22, 2008
  • At least Satan’s still reading.

    That cracks me up! Love it!

    celticbuffy’s last blog post..House Hunting Rerun

    May 22, 2008
  • No worries on my side…I’ll be hanging around here till you kick my butt…..

    Angeline’s last blog post..American Idol Winner

    May 22, 2008
  • If it helps at all, I lose at least that much hair in the shower every single time, whatever the state of my uterus.

    Memarie Lane’s last blog post..Note to Self:

    May 22, 2008
  • Still here, not going anywhere :-)
    Number of the Beast ;-) *snicker*
    Are you sure it wasn’t just feed reader on a crack trip again?
    Fickle Fickle readers.

    rachel’s last blog post..Bring on the Bananas

    May 22, 2008
  • Well, I don’t get your feed… I dunno, I just ignore those darn things! But I do read regularly.

    My readership of course, doesn’t even compare to YOURS. I think I have something like… oh maybe 6 people who read mine. LOL

    Karen’s last blog post..Clothes, Clothes and MORE Clothes!

    May 22, 2008
  • Angie S

    sssshhhh don’t tell, but I’m still reading too. Haven’t missed a day.

    May 22, 2008
  • Angie S

    sssshhhh don’t tell, but I’m still reading too. Haven’t missed a day, but it’s a secret tho’ so you can’t tell. ok?

    May 22, 2008
  • I still heart you!

    wright’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday – Weed or Flower

    May 22, 2008
  • I’m still here…

    I’d never leave you.

    Been busy busy busy.

    ~JJ!’s last blog post..On the eighth day of growing…

    May 22, 2008
  • If it matters at all, I check a few times a day :)

    HappyCampers’s last blog post..Wednesday CoOp

    May 22, 2008
  • I just Stumbled my way here, and I can tell you, I jumped on board ship, as soon as I read the “working mom/SAHM/why can’t we all just get along?” post!:)
    I am off to check some other posts here.

    PreSchool Mama’s last blog post..Fun with Magnets for Your PreSchooler

    May 22, 2008
  • Hang in there, Lotus. At least all of us self-flagellators will always and forever be yours to flail at and depress.

    Lou Lohman’s last blog post..100 Word Challenge – Distraction
    Twitter:

    May 22, 2008
  • I did a whole post about shaving my legs. I’m not scared of your hair. ANd I’m obsessing over going bald. ITs like you have hair in all the wrong places and not enough in the right.

    ARG!

    Sister Sassy’s last blog post..My Boyfriend Won!

    May 22, 2008
  • Dude, I read every day, but I don’t use a feed reader. So you’ve got the devil-and me, lol.

    (I’d love to have that many-I had a peak of 400 readers, but I average between 40 and 60 now)

    Suzanne’s last blog post..Coolness that Happens When You Blog

    May 22, 2008
  • amanda.

    Hiii Lotus! I’m still reading. Although you probably didn’t know I was reading to begin with. I also twitter-stalk you so I know as soon as you update. Your blog is definitely one of my favorites. Sometimes I feel so alone being a SAHM with only a 15 month old to talk to all day, and reading your posts lets me know that there’s someone out there who understands! <3

    May 22, 2008
  • Must be going around. My blog is just a shitload of laughs today too.

    But with regards to yours – I have to think your feed counter thingy was just messing with you. I bet it rights itself. Not that Satan isn’t reading….

    Amy @ Milk Breath & Margaritas’s last blog post..It Will Always Be Over, And Yet It Will Never End
    Twitter:

    May 22, 2008
  • That’s funny (kinda) because I noticed the mark of the beast count too!

    You could write whatever you want. I am still reading!

    missy wiggins’s last blog post..Less Words Wednesday
    Twitter:

    May 22, 2008
  • Yeah we had a big party to celebrate our loathe for you. We have pop and cake and 7-layer dip and chips and pizza. The pizza was the deal maker.
    JOKING! Be happy with you 677 readers. I have 1, yep just one lonely person like me! I am ok with it as one is better than none. One is the loneliest number that you ever knew but number one is loyal! Loyal is much much better than wishy-washy flip-flop.
    Hugs and kisses!

    Mad squirrel’s last blog post..Hometown

    May 22, 2008
  • um, is this a good time to say vive la résistance?

    zoeyjane’s last blog post..Deadly Sins – Pride and Vanity

    May 22, 2008
  • I’m still here, too. Moving from apartment to house this week, so my attendance might be spotty. But I still heart ya.

    anne’s last blog post..eating my slice of humble pie

    May 22, 2008
  • They weren’t serving ice cream so I stayed. You know- to wait for a better deal.

    As far as showering goes- it is 11:42 and I’m still jammied up. Maybe by 3 I’ll get one.

    On any given day, at what time does it become pointless to even bothering with the shower? Wait that could be my post for today!

    Bethany’s last blog post..Need A New Look

    May 22, 2008
  • Was this between Monday and Tuesday? Because I had a 40+ drop in mine.

    Let’s blame Feedburner. It’s much less personal that way.

    And just so you know, I say keep writing whatever you feel. I’m still here! I love reading your highs and lows. it makes you seem more real to me. We can’t all be sarcastic, funny bitches ALL of the time, can we?

    Queen of Shake Shake’s last blog post..Thing One & Thing Two

    May 22, 2008
  • Id never leave you Lotus.. youre still in my top TWO must read list.
    And yes.. actually.. I WOULD like to see a pic of your unshaven armpits..throw in a pic of the unshaven legs too! (Id like to compare them to my own, you see)
    Rock on Lotus..Im loving you more and more every day.

    Madness’s last blog post..Dad Update

    May 22, 2008
  • That’s pretty crappy – who needs those people anyway?

    Michelle’s last blog post..Bring on the good stuff

    May 22, 2008
  • Steph

    I’m still reading… make sure and get your thyroid checked, that might have had something to do with the loss. That is how I found my low thyroid issues.

    May 22, 2008
  • Still with you, Lotus! This isn’t any time to ditch you, it’s the time to be with you. Even if that just means reading your words and keeping current.

    Tonya’s last blog post..Odds Might be Against Me

    May 22, 2008
  • I don’t subscribe or use a reader..you forgot to count me :-)

    MP’s last blog post..Things going on…

    May 22, 2008
  • i’m still here!

    Jeanette’s last blog post..Weekly Winners

    May 22, 2008
  • It’s the weather. People are outside instead of blogging.

    But if I had half of your commenters, I’d be happy!

    Holly’s last blog post..Mom’s Law

    May 22, 2008
  • autumn dahlia

    I’ve just been on vacation!! Iwouldn’t leave you!!

    And I’m always game for a good poop pic.

    Bring it momma.

    May 22, 2008
  • Allie

    I’m on board for seeing the armpit. Grow a pair and show us! Come ON. :)

    May 22, 2008
  • If it makes you feel any better, I’m in more of a hurry to check your feed now. Through all of the poop, nekkid butts, and goofy pics, I found a friend, and now that friend is hurting. I know I don’t comment terribly much, but just know that I’m here for you, listening, and that I care.

    Makeshift Mama’s last blog post..Please vote today, Oregon.

    May 22, 2008
  • I’m here! :D

    Secret Agent Mama’s last blog post..100 Words: Distraction

    May 22, 2008
  • Kay

    There’s really only two readers you should care about and Karleigh and I will always and forever be faithful readers ;)

    May 22, 2008
  • Over 600 readers and you’re upset?!!!
    No sympathies here, I’m just excited to get up to 28 (yes, there are only 2 digits there!)

    Oh yeah, what I was originally going to say, I’m still here, we love you Lotus. . . yada yada yada, you know the deal . . .

    camdunson’s last blog post..Laminin

    May 22, 2008
  • Ha, bastards! I love your style. Perhaps the feed reader had a glitch? You have more reader than I do, I have 4!!

    Dirty Laundry Diva’s last blog post..Burning bridges is a reoccuring theme these days!

    May 22, 2008
  • still here. trying to think of something funny to say, to amuse you, but… nah, nothin’

    the planet of janet’s last blog post..Can’t live with ‘em, can’t take ‘em out and shoot ‘em
    Twitter:

    May 22, 2008
  • Hey, I just *subscribed* in the last week. I love me some depressing. Also, long-haired toddlers and stories about poor personal hygiene.

    Maybe there was some techical blip that dropped some people.

    Fern’s last blog post..potty training carnival!

    May 22, 2008
  • Amanda

    Still reading here. I’ll never get tired of you. Why would John be grossed out by your unshaven legs? You could always use them to scratch his back at night, or grow the hairs out long enough to be tangled with his. Then you’d truly be one.

    Sorry for not always commenting. I suck at keeping up.

    May 22, 2008
  • Oh STFU!! ;)

    I was all happy the other day because I broke 21.

    hahahahahahahaha

    :P

    Tasina’s last blog post..Call the fashion police

    May 22, 2008
  • I”m still trying to process this whole post-
    1. you have SIX HUNDRED SEVENTY SEVEN feed subscribers. That is proof right there of how completely awesome you are!
    2. you quote South Park and your commenters quote it too (zoeyjane), which is further proof of above re: awesomeness, and
    3. GAH, I forgot about the wads of hair that fell out for DAYS round about month 3 postpartum. I hated that!

    I love you to pieces, Lotus!

    Elizabeth’s last blog post..Photos and Muppets and Minivans, oh my.

    May 22, 2008
  • Hey I only have .001% the readership you do and I think you rock! I made it my homepage while I was on jury duty

    Jennifer A’s last blog post..Oh yeah, don’t I owe some pics from the Zoo??

    May 22, 2008
  • Tranny Head

    I’m still reading, honey! Just sad for you and thinking about you!

    Tranny Head’s last blog post..Lessons Learned

    May 22, 2008
  • Dude. I had to comment, just because there were 66 comments. LOL. Now 67.

    May 22, 2008
  • Who needs fair-weather readers anyway?
    Your blog right now is about what you’re living right now…..how could it be about anything else?

    dysfunctional mom’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday: Confession Coming Back to Haunt Me

    May 22, 2008
  • I’m still here.

    And ya, the joys of postpartum just pissed me off after my miscarriages. There really is no justice in this world.

    Tara R’s last blog post..Olivia rides again

    May 22, 2008
  • Hockeyman

    Sorry, I am comment number 70. So ow you’re site doesn’t even have a 69 on it. Remember, according to that supreme Scientologist Tom Cruise, postpartum doesn’t exist. *sarcasm* That dude’s a wacko…

    Chin up and all that jazz, Conan rules! 8)
    Hockeyman’s last blog post..What’s for Dinner?

    May 22, 2008
  • I am still here. I enjoy reading whether I laugh or cry. I <3 you and besides, could not ever resist the pictures of your adorable son.

    Rachael’s last blog post..TV Thoughts Tonight
    Twitter:

    May 22, 2008
  • I still want to read what you have to say, depression or not. I don’t see why so many people would jump ship when you get a little down in the dumps, I’ve had that happenq`

    shannymar’s last blog post..Reason # 567 why coffee and small children don’t mix.

    May 22, 2008
  • Sorry about my last comment! LOL! My eight monh old was sitting in my lap and slapped the keyboard so hard she somehow posted that before I was done (and even added an extra “q’” for the fun of it. Anyway, back to what I was saying;
    I’ve had that happen on my blog too (of course my significant loss in readers would be more like 10 not 60!) but it’s a little sad to think that they would just give up on you for a few days of depressin posts! I hate that! Don’t you?

    shannymar’s last blog post..Reason # 567 why coffee and small children don’t mix.

    May 22, 2008
  • I am still here. Just busy having my own depressing blog and removing excess hair from my drain while admiring how SOFT armpit hair gets when um, forgotten about.

    Gotta go take a shower. BRB.

    ;)

    Kay (Special K)’s last blog post..I swear this blog is not going Aerosmith 24/7

    May 22, 2008
  • Aw frack, if I ever had 60 readers to LOSE..
    Or that much hair to lose….

    Man, you’ve got a lot on your plate and in your shower drain Lotus.

    And just write what you want to write. Screw those people who only want the sugar coated aspects. Screw ‘em all… let their teeth rot for all their sugary coated goodness.

    Oh, and I LOVE POOP BLOGS/ INAPPROPRIATE PICTURES OF MY BABY TOO!!!

    http://coffeefuelledmamma.blogspot.com/2008/04/awwwww-poooooooop.html#links

    Tracey’s last blog post..CP “R” you prepared???

    May 22, 2008
  • I have a theory about your drop in readers. Maybe *they’re* the dummyfaces. Ever think about that?

    May 22, 2008
  • Add me to those still here, still reading, still subscribed :)

    Maggie’s Mind’s last blog post..Hai (Thank) Ku (You) Friday 5/23/08

    May 23, 2008
  • I posted a picture of my postpartum baby hair falling out awhile ago. It made me very sad to see it and know it was the last time I’d be experiencing it. (No more kiddos as of last Thursday, if you know what I mean)

    And my feedburner numbers have been so wonky this week.

    We all still love our Lotus.

    xo ~K

    karla ~looking towards heaven’s last blog post..How Not to Look Old – revisited

    May 23, 2008
  • I still read! Maybe there was a massive feed reader glitch (???)

    A Lil’ Irish Lass’s last blog post..Is There A Self-Help Book For This?

    May 23, 2008
  • Stephaine

    Still here—still reading!

    May 23, 2008
  • Alyssa

    We’re still here! We still love you, unshowered, unshaved (shaven?), bald, however you are. We won’t desert you! (MMMM…dessert!)

    May 23, 2008
  • Calling your audience bastards might help! We’re good sports. Btw, that heap on your shower floor? I think it growled.

    Tootsie Farklepants’s last blog post..We Interrupt Friday’s Regularly Scheduled Advice Column to Bring You This Important Bulletin!

    May 23, 2008
  • ArmPIT! ArmPIT! ArmPIT! Arm PIT!
    (picture me banging on my desk, yelling at my monitor in a frenzy demanding to see your armpit)
    ArmPIT! ArmPIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

    You know what would rock?

    Scratch n sniff.

    May 23, 2008
  • Jenny

    hey, I recognize that clump of hair!! for about 2 or 3 months after my last miscarriage (at 12 weeks pg.) I would remove hamster size and shape clumps from the drain every other day (k, so I don’t shower every day, so sue me). But it is worse if you arent eating right/getting enough sleep. So take a mutivitamin and take care of yourself. I still love your blog, I read every day. I love you!
    xo, Jenny

    May 23, 2008
  • I will blame it on the weather. Maybe it is not nice everywhere, but when spring and summer come, it is harder to sit at the computer. I hope you are hanging in there, even if your hair isn’t!

    Jenski’s last blog post..A delayed response to Idol

    May 23, 2008
  • Still lurking and reading and crying and laughing with you…. just not commenting very much. Keep on keepin on with WHATever you need to post. We all still love you!

    Tracy D’s last blog post..Doing OK

    May 24, 2008
  • You could write one word posts and I will still read.. I heart your blog.. It has to be a clich.. you rock the blogsphere!

    Kim’s last blog post..A Mommy Blessing- May 26 2007

    May 26, 2008
  • [...] I have issues. It’s official.  This post proves it. Lilacspecs “Triple Dawg Dared” me to show my unshaven pits when I joked about it on this post. [...]

    May 31, 2008

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