And I’m sorry about that.
No heartbeat at yesterday’s prenatal appointment.
Based on size, Fuzzball made it to 11 weeks, 4 days.
In a sense, there’s nothing more to say.
And still, there’s so much more to say.
So little desire.
For now.
And again, I force you to board the bumpy ride with me.
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#1 by Taunia on December 10, 2008 - 1:22 AM
I am so, so, so very sorry for your loss- again.
I just read your blog for the first time. I found you from the blogher article on miscarriage, from glow in the woods.
Our second son died when he was two weeks old- traumatic pregnancy, preemie birth. I had a miscarriage 4 months later. I was devastated because I lost my hope along with the loss of that pregnancy. One loss was a fluke, I told myself. Two, was not. It was like I had to grieve Gavin’s death and then the hope of the possibility of having another child. Now, ten years later, we have been blessed with two more daughters, but at the time, I was mourning the loss of the family I hoped for.
I wish I could give you words of comfort, but I can’t. It hurts. It sucks. Know you are in my prayers. And I will light a candle to remember and honor your lost babes.
Peace to you-
Taunia
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#2 by Carrie on December 27, 2008 - 11:21 PM
@Taunia, i am so sorry for your loss! I had three early miscarriages about 8 years ago, but I know how hard the loss is. {{hugs}}
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#3 by Zoeyjane on December 10, 2008 - 1:26 AM
I”m emailing you.
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#4 by Miss on December 10, 2008 - 1:27 AM
Lotus… you know all our arms are wrapped around all of you right now… for as long as you need them.
Misss last blog post..I’m in love
#5 by Sarah on December 10, 2008 - 1:27 AM
Oh Lotus, I’m so sorry to read this entry. I wish I could offer words that would make a difference, but I don’t know that they exist. Instead, I will be praying for you and your family. <3
Sarahs last blog post..Finito!
#6 by Caren D on December 10, 2008 - 1:31 AM
Fuck.
I’m so sorry.
#7 by Kristin on December 10, 2008 - 1:33 AM
Lotus! Oh no! I’m in tears..I can’t say anything but shit man…we lover you!
Kristins last blog post..My Baby Is Finally Heading Off..
#8 by Nikki C on December 10, 2008 - 1:35 AM
So sweetie , I’m so so sorry. There are no other words than that and to let you know that I will be praying for you and your family!!
Nikki Cs last blog post..Year of a Million ZZZZZZZ’s (part 4 of 4,part2)
#9 by Jamie on December 10, 2008 - 1:35 AM
I am so so so sorry.
Jamies last blog post..Ivy’s Quote of the Day
#10 by VDog on December 10, 2008 - 1:40 AM
I’m SO so sorry, hun. Big hugs to you.
VDogs last blog post..Say CHEESE!!!
#11 by Elizabeth on December 10, 2008 - 1:47 AM
I know there is no hope of words helping in a time like this, but I am so, so sorry. You’re in my thoughts.
Elizabeths last blog post..Picture day of the week
#12 by Mr Lady on December 10, 2008 - 1:50 AM
Crushed. Totally crushed for you.
Mr Ladys last blog post..I Found My Kindergarten Picture Too, But There’s No Way In Hell I’m Showing You That.
#13 by connie on December 10, 2008 - 1:56 AM
Oh no, Lotus. I’m so, so, so sorry. Sending big hugs & lots of prayers your way. We’re here for you.
(((big hugs)))
connies last blog post..Weekly Winners=Nov. 30th-Dec. 6th 2008
#14 by Isabel Kallman on December 10, 2008 - 1:58 AM
oh, dear.
i am so so sorry.
#15 by Fe on December 10, 2008 - 2:00 AM
Oh God. I’m so so sorry.
I went through 5 miscarriages. And it is agony. There are no words, so I’ll just give you a huge cyber-hug and tell you that way across the world, I’m shedding tears for your pain.
(((((((((( hugs ))))))))))
#16 by Walking With Scissors on December 10, 2008 - 2:07 AM
I was so worried when I read your Twitter update because I just knew this was why. I am so, so very sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers. I wish I could say something to help you.
Walking With Scissorss last blog post..Retaining My Amateur Status
#17 by Suzanne on December 10, 2008 - 2:09 AM
I had hoped for so much for you, John and Braden. It’s been a shitty year for many.
I am so very sorry.
Suzannes last blog post..Paying it Forward: A Holiday Giveaway
#18 by the planet of janet on December 10, 2008 - 2:12 AM
oh lotus. i’m so sorry. i ache for you.
the planet of janets last blog post..Haiku Friday: the scent of a woman edition
#19 by bloggiefever on December 10, 2008 - 2:16 AM
I am so sorry. Praying for you and thinking of you.
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#20 by Kara on December 10, 2008 - 2:19 AM
Again I have no words for you. Just virtual hugs and prayers.
Karas last blog post..All he wants for Christmas is….
#21 by Krista on December 10, 2008 - 2:25 AM
I am so so sorry Lotus. It looked so good. I’m just wishing for you that this could be a dream.
Love you
Kristas last blog post..Book: Quills and Promises
#22 by Katie Ann on December 10, 2008 - 2:42 AM
Ohhhh god, fuck, I’m so sorry. There are no words but “I’m sorry.” There is this weird lopsided cyber-relationship in that I follow your life through your blog, and you don’t even know I exist, but know that there is one more person out there who wishes she could hug you.
#23 by Veronica on December 10, 2008 - 2:48 AM
I emailed you.
Holding you close and crying for you from across the world. xxx
Veronicas last blog post..Physio
#24 by Corey ~living and loving on December 10, 2008 - 2:51 AM
My heart aches for your sorrow. I am so incredibly sorry to pop on here and see this. My heart goes out to you and your family. If there is anything I can do, please don’t hesitate to ask.
much love and hugs.
#25 by kompostela on December 10, 2008 - 3:12 AM
I know it’s hard to listen to any words now…. I’m crying now cause my heart is aching…
I know you don’t need anyone now…
I only can pray for you….
Kiss and hug!
kompostelas last blog post..Game to Develop Your Toddler’s Little Fingers Skills
#26 by Kristen on December 10, 2008 - 3:16 AM
Words could never express my heart felt sorrow for you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending lots of hugs your way.
Feel free to hide under your sheets for a few days, we will all be here when you return.
Kristens last blog post..Mr. Giraffe
#27 by Email From The Embassy on December 10, 2008 - 3:19 AM
I am so sorry. I lost two little ones, and it just plain hurts. You’re in my prayers.
Email From The Embassys last blog post..Brrrrr…
#28 by jill on December 10, 2008 - 3:54 AM
Oh my stinkin heck. While I’ve sadly been in your same shoes – 3 times – nothing I can say will help make the pain go away. Cry away – that always helps.
Thinking of you during this crappy time.
jills last blog post..Okay… Let’s Compare
#29 by Rachael on December 10, 2008 - 4:00 AM
I wish there was something, anything, I could say other than how sorry I am. I wish the words didn’t seem so empty. And still, I want to say them. I’m so, so sorry. I’ll take my tears now and turn them into thoughts & prayers for you and your husband. (HUGS)
Rachaels last blog post..Wordless Wednesday: My Boy
#30 by Gabriel on December 10, 2008 - 4:27 AM
Oh. No f****ng way!!!!
I’m so sorry, Lotus. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. You guys must be strong. Please be strong.
Gabriels last blog post..WW#57 – Horses
#31 by Marylin on December 10, 2008 - 4:45 AM
Words just aren’t enough. I’m so so sorry sweetheart, hugging you from Scotland. All my love to you, john and braden xxx
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#32 by river on December 10, 2008 - 4:53 AM
Oh No…….
#33 by dysfunctional mom on December 10, 2008 - 5:35 AM
I am so, so very sorry.
dysfunctional moms last blog post..The DysFUNctional Part of the Family
#34 by Mrs. CPA on December 10, 2008 - 6:09 AM
Lotus, I’m so sorry. I’ll be thinking of you today.
Mrs. CPAs last blog post..Well, I Wonder Who’s Going to Apply for That Position
#35 by Michelle on December 10, 2008 - 6:11 AM
I’m so sorry.
You have my heart and prayers.
#36 by Rebecca on December 10, 2008 - 6:16 AM
Oh, Lotus. I’m so sorry.
Rebeccas last blog post..Odd things…
#37 by Kat on December 10, 2008 - 6:24 AM
Lotus, there are no words that anyone can say, just know how much you are thought of and cared for.
I’m so very sorry.
#38 by Regina on December 10, 2008 - 6:36 AM
I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. God does things for reasons we will never understand. The only thing we can do is be thankful for the things that we have and pray for the faith to continue our lives. My prayers are with you and your family.
#39 by photomommy on December 10, 2008 - 6:49 AM
Oh Lotus, I am so very sorry. I wish I could say something wise and and prophetic that would ease your pain. Just know that my thoughts are with you.
*HUGS*
photomommys last blog post..This is Why I Looove Michigan
#40 by Bunny on December 10, 2008 - 6:54 AM
I am so sorry for your loss, Lotus. I can only imagine what you are going through. I am thinking about you and your family.
Bunnys last blog post..Overwhelmed
#41 by Cathy on December 10, 2008 - 7:01 AM
I’m so sorry for your loss.
Cathys last blog post..Christmas Project Number…oh I lost count…
#42 by Lilacspecs on December 10, 2008 - 7:10 AM
Oh no.
Oh, Lotus, I’m so so sorry.
Lilacspecss last blog post..Not Much Happening Here
#43 by Lisa on December 10, 2008 - 7:29 AM
OMG Lotus. I am so sorry. I know nothing said will make it any better but you know that all of us are here for you.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and John.
#44 by Meredith on December 10, 2008 - 7:32 AM
My heart sank when I read this. I am so sorry…more than words can say. So. Sorry.
#45 by jessi on December 10, 2008 - 7:33 AM
long time reader, rare commenter. I am so sorry for your loss… this news is just devastating. so so sorry.
#46 by shannon on December 10, 2008 - 7:39 AM
I am so sorry for your loss.
shannons last blog post..Wordless Wednesday -Frankfurt Christmas Market
#47 by Allie on December 10, 2008 - 7:57 AM
Lotus. You fucking hang on, do you hear me? Grab something with both hands and hang on. We are all here.
#48 by Chaos on December 10, 2008 - 8:05 AM
Lotus I’m sorry, but hang on. We’re here.
#49 by Ali on December 10, 2008 - 8:06 AM
I’m so very sorry.
#50 by Amanda on December 10, 2008 - 8:07 AM
I’m so sorry for your loss. You and your lovely family are in my thoughts.
Amandas last blog post..Herbed Focaccia
#51 by Ashlie- Mommycosm on December 10, 2008 - 8:07 AM
Oh, NO!
NO NO NO!
It seems so meaningless to say that I’m sorry, but I am so very sorry you are going through this.
No offense, but to those “God has a plan” people…God’s plan totally SUCKS sometimes.
We’ve never met in person, yet here I am crying over here after reading this.
Hang in there.
((Hugs))
Ashlie- Mommycosms last blog post..Wordless Wednesday: We have a winner…
#52 by Jen @ Mommay's Mayhem on December 10, 2008 - 8:28 AM
I’m so sorry. That really sucks.
Jen @ Mommay’s Mayhems last blog post..Wordless Wednesday 12.10.08
#53 by Melissa on December 10, 2008 - 8:32 AM
Sweetheart, I am so very very sorry. I saw your tweet and I knew. I’m devastated for you. You have so many people to see you through this pain. I hope there are as many “real” people to hold you.
#54 by bouncy czech on December 10, 2008 - 8:39 AM
doode!
so sorry…
#55 by Kari on December 10, 2008 - 8:42 AM
I’m so sorry to hear what happened. So sorry.
#56 by AnnD on December 10, 2008 - 8:43 AM
oh my god…..there are no words….I can’t imagine…..my heart aches for you and John…..I’m just so very, very sorry Lotus.
AnnDs last blog post..A trip to Urgent Care.
#57 by Dawn on December 10, 2008 - 8:44 AM
I am now in love with each and every one of your commenters. Sincere feeling in each one – I will now go make out with all of them. One by one.
After you. Of course.
Thinking of you this morning as I know you had that painful moment of waking up and remembering that you are back in the shit.
Dawns last blog post..Things you need to leave the house with a toddler
#58 by koehmstedt on December 10, 2008 - 8:44 AM
Lotus, I am so very sorry. Dammit life really is a bitch.
koehmstedts last blog post..I couldn’t resist elfing us
#59 by wright on December 10, 2008 - 8:47 AM
Oh, Lotus. I am so sorry to hear that. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
#60 by Z on December 10, 2008 - 8:49 AM
I am so sorry…
Zs last blog post..…
#61 by Avitable on December 10, 2008 - 8:50 AM
I’m sorry, Lotus.
Avitables last blog post..I obsess
#62 by Rachel on December 10, 2008 - 8:52 AM
Oh Lotus honey.
I’m so so sorry. I have no words of comfort that will do anything for you.
Just my deepest sympathy, compassion and love.
So much love. My tears and my heart to you and your precious family.
Rachels last blog post..Easy Taco Soup
#63 by A Cowboy's Wife on December 10, 2008 - 8:54 AM
As someone who has lost 4, I sympathize. I truly am sorry for your loss.
A Cowboy’s Wifes last blog post..A Blogging Break for Re-Self Discovery
#64 by idlemindofbeth on December 10, 2008 - 8:54 AM
Oh Lotus, I’m so, so sorry.
You’re family is in my prayers.
idlemindofbeths last blog post..The 9 Layers Meme
#65 by vhmprincess on December 10, 2008 - 9:04 AM
omg, i am so sorry.
vhmprincesss last blog post..FINANCIAL CONFESSIONS!
#66 by Cindy on December 10, 2008 - 9:06 AM
So sorry for your loss.
#67 by To Think Is To Create on December 10, 2008 - 9:14 AM
Oh sweets. Words fail me. Hugs…
xoxo
`Arianne
To Think Is To Creates last blog post..Friend Disclaimer
#68 by Jennifer S^N on December 10, 2008 - 9:15 AM
I am so sorry
#69 by Gretchen on December 10, 2008 - 9:15 AM
Like everyone else – there’s nothing I can say other than I am so sorry to hear the news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
#70 by Adventures In Babywearing on December 10, 2008 - 9:19 AM
Oh dear, I am so very sorry.
Stephanie
Adventures In Babywearings last blog post..tinyspeak
#71 by Kat on December 10, 2008 - 9:21 AM
I am so, so sorry.
Kats last blog post..Meet Your New Mom
#72 by Josh on December 10, 2008 - 9:21 AM
Lotus-
I am sorry. Hang in there!
Josh
Joshs last blog post..America’s Got Talent…
#73 by Amy @ Milk Breath & Margaritas on December 10, 2008 - 9:23 AM
I’m emailing you sweetie.
Amy @ Milk Breath & Margaritass last blog post..The Future Looks Like This?
#74 by Iris on December 10, 2008 - 9:24 AM
Dear sweet Lotus, you have my deepest condolences. I wish I could buy you a drink and hold your hand. I am sending prayers and hugs through the wires to you.
e-love from another stranger friend
#75 by cartoongoddess on December 10, 2008 - 9:26 AM
I am so very sorry.
#76 by Laura on December 10, 2008 - 9:31 AM
I’m so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you and our family.
Lauras last blog post..Games: Secret Agent Clank for PSP
#77 by Spoiled Mommy on December 10, 2008 - 9:32 AM
*speechless*
I am SO very sorry for your loss.
My heart aches for you.
{{hugs}}
Spoiled Mommys last blog post..Morning debut of Mr. Elf!
#78 by ammie (used to be sleepingmommy) on December 10, 2008 - 9:35 AM
I’m so sorry Lotus.
So very sorry.
ammie (used to be sleepingmommy)s last blog post..Still here
#79 by jeri lynne on December 10, 2008 - 9:36 AM
Man that friggen sucks…I wish there was more I could say or do..I have 3 teenagers if you want one of them your welcome to them..
(((((((BIG HUGS)))))))
#80 by Courtney on December 10, 2008 - 9:40 AM
Lotus I’m so sorry… Hang in there you know you are a strong woman and can make it through this again their are no words… I wish I could take away the pain I know your felling right now…. You’re family is in my prayers!
#81 by Jamie on December 10, 2008 - 9:41 AM
I’m so so sorry you are going through this Lotus.
Jamies last blog post..When Mommy’s Away, It’s Naked PB&J
#82 by Ree on December 10, 2008 - 9:42 AM
{{hugs}} There’s nothing to say except I’m so, so sorry Lotus.
Rees last blog post..The Time I Almost…
#83 by perpstu on December 10, 2008 - 9:44 AM
(((HUGS))) I cried when I read your entry this morning. I am so, so sorry for your loss…
#84 by Lisa on December 10, 2008 - 9:44 AM
I read your blog everyday, but have never commented, couldn’t stay silent this time. Like all the others, I am so sorry and wish you all the best.
#85 by Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing] on December 10, 2008 - 9:47 AM
So very sorry.
Love you and your family.
Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing]s last blog post..Wordless 11.10.8
#86 by Alison on December 10, 2008 - 9:49 AM
So sorry Lotus.
#87 by Janelle on December 10, 2008 - 9:50 AM
I am beyond sorry. There are no words.
Janelles last blog post..What Then?
#88 by Mandy on December 10, 2008 - 9:50 AM
Oh, Lotus, I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers.
#89 by ColleenM on December 10, 2008 - 9:54 AM
You are in my prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.
#90 by merrymishaps on December 10, 2008 - 9:56 AM
I’m so sorry.
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#91 by Cee Cee on December 10, 2008 - 9:57 AM
I was SO SORRY to read this. Cannot imagine the pain you are going through – my sincere prayers to you for strength to get through this difficult time!
#92 by Summer on December 10, 2008 - 10:02 AM
I am so, so sorry.
#93 by Becky on December 10, 2008 - 10:03 AM
I’m so sad for your loss. Hang in there and know that there are so many people thinking of you and wishing you well.
#94 by Emmalito on December 10, 2008 - 10:12 AM
Oh my. My heart just fell when i read today’s post.
There aren’t enough lettters in the word to hold all the emotion, but it’s all i’ve got to send from the other side of the world.
Sorry.
#95 by Hydes Like Us on December 10, 2008 - 10:15 AM
No. ( Head in hands. )
Hydes Like Uss last blog post..20/20
#96 by Ashley @ mrs007.com on December 10, 2008 - 10:20 AM
It seems so weird to type something in this little box after what I just read. You have a lot of people praying for you. If you need me to bring you a casserole just say the word. I hope you have someone there with you to comfort you right now. Love on Braden and know that we are all aching for you.
Ashley @ mrs007.coms last blog post..Period’s aren’t just punctuation
#97 by The Other Dawn on December 10, 2008 - 10:22 AM
Lotus, I am so, so sorry. What a clusterF you’ve all had to wade through in the last year.
You are not forcing us on this journey with you. We’re here totally of our own volition, because we WANT to be here, and you just dish out all the nasty and sad you want, because we will still be here. Because we care about you.
You know if there’s anything we could do to help, all you have to do is put it out there. I’m the 90+ commenter here today. And that ain’t a fluke.
The Other Dawns last blog post..I Will Always Be Weird Inside, I Will Always Be Lame…
#98 by Elaine on December 10, 2008 - 10:23 AM
My heart goes out to completely today…. I am SO very sorry… prayers for you…
Elaines last blog post..And the Chocolate Goes to…
#99 by Christina on December 10, 2008 - 10:29 AM
I’m out here always reading and seldom commenting…but today, I just had to tell you how very sorry I am. SO sorry.
Christinas last blog post..The Cousins
#100 by Kecia on December 10, 2008 - 10:35 AM
Devastating. I pray that it doesn’t level you. You have build a strong strong foundation, hang on.
Kecias last blog post..Sounds of the season
#101 by A Jill of All Trades on December 10, 2008 - 10:43 AM
OMG I am so sorry.
This is so sad to hear. All of my thoughts are with you and your family during this time.
A Jill of All Tradess last blog post..Stoked!
#102 by Issa on December 10, 2008 - 10:56 AM
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is with you all right now.
Issas last blog post..How to tell if there is a blizzard, by Issa and Logan:
#103 by kara on December 10, 2008 - 10:56 AM
I am so very sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family.
#104 by Junebug on December 10, 2008 - 11:06 AM
I am so sorry! I hope you can get lots of fresh air and sunshine this winter. That may sound silly right now but it is necessary to lift your spirit. I will pray for you too.
Junebugs last blog post..Wordless Wednesday-He Built It
#105 by sam {temptingmama} on December 10, 2008 - 11:30 AM
I wish I knew what to say. I wish there were words to take away your pain. I am sooo very very sorry!
*hugs*
sam {temptingmama}s last blog post..Part One: The Boy
#106 by Lori on December 10, 2008 - 11:32 AM
I’m so, so sorry.
Loris last blog post..A Giveaway! Chocolate!
#107 by Leanne on December 10, 2008 - 11:42 AM
Shit
I just don’t even know what to say.
Apart from its not fucking fair.
I’m so sorry.
Leannes last blog post..WFMW – When being cheap doesn’t work
#108 by Rachael on December 10, 2008 - 11:49 AM
Oh my God. I am so sorry. I don’t have words.
((((((((((((((((((Lotus))))))))))))))))))
#109 by cbrks12 on December 10, 2008 - 11:57 AM
I am so very sorry that this happened. You are in my prayers.
#110 by Jen on December 10, 2008 - 12:03 PM
I’m so sorry for your pain and loss. *many prayers*
Jens last blog post..A Second Home
#111 by Dawn on December 10, 2008 - 12:07 PM
Oh Lotus, I am so very, very sorry.
Dawns last blog post..We Need A Little Christmas
#112 by Anu on December 10, 2008 - 12:07 PM
Sigh. There are no words. My heart aches for you….
#113 by Maria on December 10, 2008 - 12:08 PM
Oh honey I’m so sorry. I’m so, so sorry.
(love)
#114 by Kim on December 10, 2008 - 12:10 PM
There really are no words.. I am so sorry ..
Kims last blog post..Smell McDreamy – Excuse me while I name drop
#115 by * TONYA * on December 10, 2008 - 12:16 PM
Lotus, I’m so so sorry. I wish there was some way to make this all go away. My heart breaks for you. Sending a big hug your way.
* TONYA *s last blog post..TWINS X 5
#116 by Karen Hartzell, Graco on December 10, 2008 - 12:16 PM
I cannot begin to know what you are feeling, but I can say that I am very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.
#117 by A Lil' Irish Lass on December 10, 2008 - 12:17 PM
Lotus, there are no words to express how truly sorry I am for your loss. You are such an amazing woman and it is so unbelievably cruel that this has happened again.
My thoughts are with you and your family.
A Lil’ Irish Lasss last blog post..Just What I Didn’t Need
#118 by Beck on December 10, 2008 - 12:19 PM
Oh sweetie.
I’m just so, so sorry.
Becks last blog post..My Favorite Christmas Songs, 2008 Edition
#119 by Christine on December 10, 2008 - 12:20 PM
Hi Lotus. I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. At the same time you announced your pregnancy, I miscarried mine. I also miscarried at the 11.5 week mark. It would have been my first child. So reading this especially hit home for me. Take care of yourself. We’re all praying for you.
#120 by Vicki on December 10, 2008 - 12:24 PM
I’m so sorry to read about your loss. I found you from a retweet. I’m praying.
#121 by Burgh Baby on December 10, 2008 - 12:26 PM
I don’t comment often, and I sincerely wish I had no reason to do so now. I am so very sorry for your loss.
Burgh Babys last blog post..Guess What!
#122 by Angie on December 10, 2008 - 12:26 PM
I am so sad to be reading this news. I am in tears wishing there was something I could say to help you through this. I will be praying for you.
love,
Angie
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#123 by T with Honey on December 10, 2008 - 12:34 PM
Oh, Lotus! I know that nothing I write can make you feel better. This sucks. Period. Just know that a lot of people are thinking of you, sending you hugs and wishing there was something we could do to make it not so.
T with Honeys last blog post..The 4th thing at Christmas that’s such a pain to me
#124 by Jennifer on December 10, 2008 - 12:36 PM
Nothing to say that hasn’t already been said, not that it would help anyway. But I am here.
Jennifers last blog post..Wordless Wednesday
#125 by Candice on December 10, 2008 - 12:37 PM
My heart fell when I read this earlier today. I have been thinking about you and your family all day. I am so sorry. You do not deserve this again. It is just not fair.
#126 by jill on December 10, 2008 - 12:38 PM
I was sharing your story with my husband just the other day. I know he’ll be just as crushed as I was to hear the sad news. I’m sending any visitors I have over to lend support.
jills last blog post..Who knew Brian Williams was funny?
#127 by *pixie* on December 10, 2008 - 12:38 PM
Oh Lotus,
I’m so, so sorry. Utterly sad for all of you. Utterly.
#128 by Elisa on December 10, 2008 - 12:38 PM
Lotus, I am so sorry for your loss. This is so devastating, I am so sad for you and your family. Keeping you in my thoughts…
Elisas last blog post..Holy… it IS true, we never stop learning! (letter to myself)
#129 by Katrina on December 10, 2008 - 12:45 PM
Sending you lots of strength and light, Lotus. You’re all in my thoughts.
Katrinas last blog post..Another year
#130 by Theresa on December 10, 2008 - 12:52 PM
Lotus, I am so sorry to hear of this. As someone else said, I have no words that will make a difference but you are in my prayers.
Theresas last blog post..Bite Me
#131 by MikeP on December 10, 2008 - 12:52 PM
I’m so sorry for your loss.
If there is one thing I realized from reading your blog, it’s that you are definitely strong enough to overcome this.
#132 by Lilly on December 10, 2008 - 12:54 PM
I’ve been reading your blog for a few months, but I’ve never left a comment. I’m terribly sorry for you and your family right now. Please take care of each other.
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#133 by Michelle on December 10, 2008 - 12:58 PM
Oh eff. That’s all I’ve got.
I’m sorry beyond words. Take care of yourself. If there is anything I can do please don’t hesitate.
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#134 by tommie on December 10, 2008 - 1:08 PM
not much more to say than I am so sorry!
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#135 by Cinnamon on December 10, 2008 - 1:15 PM
Long time reader, first time commenter. It has all been said over and over again. I hope you can feel the love eminating from all of us. You are amazing. Like Allie said in an earlier comment, “grab something with both hands and just hang on”. I recommend Braden. He will help get you through this. God bless all of you during this sad time.
#136 by feener on December 10, 2008 - 1:20 PM
i am truly sorry
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#137 by Alice on December 10, 2008 - 1:26 PM
I’m so sorry … there’s nothing I can say to make it better. I’ve also lost two and it hurts more than people know but I hold the one I do have tighter and make it through another day. Your family is in our prayers, please just take care of each other sweetie.
#138 by supermommy on December 10, 2008 - 1:32 PM
So very sorry, Lotus. I had 2 miscarriages before Curly Girl was born. My thoughts are with you and your family.
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#139 by lceel on December 10, 2008 - 1:41 PM
Hit me. Punch me. Kick me. Let it out on me. I’ll HUG you when you’re all punched out.
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#140 by raging dad on December 10, 2008 - 1:47 PM
Oh no. I am so sorry, Lotus. Obviously, you have a lot of positivity being sent your way. I hope it can make even a tiny dent in the wave of grief that you are probably dealing with.
#141 by Stassja on December 10, 2008 - 1:51 PM
Oh hun, I’m so so very sorry.
That really sucks and I’m sending hugs and love your way.
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#142 by Tatiana on December 10, 2008 - 1:51 PM
I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine how you must be feeling. My thoughts are with you.
Tatianas last blog post..SNOW
#143 by Mz. Nesbit on December 10, 2008 - 1:55 PM
Oh My God.
I am not usually a prayer, but I will most absolutely pray for you from now on.
(((hugs from afar)))
hang in there sweetie.
Mz. Nesbits last blog post..Wordless Wednesday -the "He needs no further introduction" Edition
#144 by Gaby on December 10, 2008 - 1:55 PM
I’m so sorry to read this heartbreaking news. My prayers are with you and your family. Big Hug
#145 by imaginary binky on December 10, 2008 - 2:06 PM
FUCK.
Thank you for sharing this with me last night, at a time when I am sure you were not ready to talk. It comforts me to know that John is with you now. I know I really needed my rock when the seas were pulling me under. John is just about the best kind of rock I can imagine.
We’ve been through a lot, you and me. I wish those experiences were more of the positive, happy kind rather than sitting in life’s boat of crap. Remember that conversation we had about how all of this makes us more interesting people? Honestly, I’d like to dial down the interest, but I guess that’s not up to me. It doesn’t bring back what you’ve lost.
I’m here. Ready when you are.
imaginary binkys last blog post..Maybe I can tape it back on
#146 by Jessi on December 10, 2008 - 2:22 PM
I know there’s nothing I can say to make it better or take away the pain you are feeling now Lotus. I am so sorry for your loss.
#147 by Allison Worthington {@fussypants} on December 10, 2008 - 2:30 PM
I love you darling. {hugs}
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#148 by Sissy on December 10, 2008 - 2:40 PM
I know you’ve got a million “I’m Sorry’s” but there’s nothing else to say. I’m so sorry. I know that silence where the heartbeat should be. It sucks like nothing has ever sucked before.
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#149 by Jeanette on December 10, 2008 - 2:49 PM
NO!!
I’m so so so very sorry Lotus (((HUGS))).
I know how you’re feeling… too well. Just know that we’re all thinking of you.
#150 by Jenny from Mommin' It Up! on December 10, 2008 - 2:52 PM
I’m also totally crushed for you, Mr. Lady put it best. This blows.
Jenny from Mommin’ It Up!s last blog post..I’m Pretty Much the Gold Standard
#151 by Erin on December 10, 2008 - 2:54 PM
I’m so sorry. You poor thing, no one should have to go through this.
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#152 by Stacey on December 10, 2008 - 3:16 PM
I am so so very sorry. I wish there was something more I could say or do. My thoughts are with you
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#153 by Jessica Turner on December 10, 2008 - 3:18 PM
I’m so sorry… Praying for you here in Nashvegas.
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#154 by gooddog on December 10, 2008 - 3:18 PM
No. Oh, no. I am so so sorry. Thinking of you.
#155 by Trenches of Mommyhood on December 10, 2008 - 3:22 PM
No words. Hugs.
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#156 by Trina on December 10, 2008 - 3:31 PM
I am so so sorry! I know there’s nothing I can say to make it better or take away the pain you are feeling now Lotus. Hugs!
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#157 by DeuceMom on December 10, 2008 - 3:42 PM
Holy shit, I’m so sorry.
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#158 by BeThisWay on December 10, 2008 - 3:48 PM
I’m so, so sorry, Lotus.
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#159 by Secret Agent Mama on December 10, 2008 - 4:01 PM
Oh, no, no, no, NO!
Lotus, please know that I am holding you close to heart, in prayer.
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#160 by Adrienne on December 10, 2008 - 4:02 PM
My heart goes to you and your family. May you be encased in many many virtual hugs.
#161 by Colleen - Mommy Always Wins on December 10, 2008 - 4:14 PM
Oh, hon. My heart just BROKE for you. I’m in tears here at work. For what they’re worth, ((hugs)).
Colleen – Mommy Always Winss last blog post..Only a mother could love a face like this.
#162 by Cindy on December 10, 2008 - 4:23 PM
This was the last thing I wanted to read. Dear God, Lotus, I am so incredibly sorry. So so sorry.
#163 by anne on December 10, 2008 - 4:43 PM
Oh, sweetpea, I’m so, so sorry. And I hate that those words feel so very inadequate, because what I’d really like to do is wrap real arms around you and hug you forever.
I’ll echo what others have said: I’m not being dragged anywhere, love. I will walk beside you through the shit, voluntarily. And though I hope that you have lots of in-the-flesh faces to comfort you and lift you up right now, know that anytime you just feel like letting it all out, being raw, and needing support, I’m here for you.
I miss my two angels, too.
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#164 by The Glamorous Life on December 10, 2008 - 4:54 PM
NO! I can’t believe it!
I am SO SORRY. I am so SAD.
Oh darling….hang tough. Really I am shocked. And a little PISSED OFF. Why does this happen? Not fair.
THIS SUCKs.
I would cry with you if we could.
#165 by Sandra on December 10, 2008 - 4:54 PM
So sorry Lotus.
Sandra
#166 by Jientje on December 10, 2008 - 5:02 PM
I’m so sorry Lotus.
So sad. Why do bad things happen to good people?
Hugs.
Jientjes last blog post..Pay it Forward
#167 by Melodie on December 10, 2008 - 5:19 PM
I am so so sorry… I wish there was more I could say or do. I will send calm peaceful thoughts and energy your way.
#168 by SJ on December 10, 2008 - 5:26 PM
There is nothing I can say that will make anything better. Just know that my heart is broken for you and your family and that I shed tears for your loss. I will be thinking about you and your family. I am so, so very sorry.
#169 by Judith Shakespeare on December 10, 2008 - 5:28 PM
Oh, honey… I’m so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.
Judith Shakespeares last blog post..…Are You Just Going to Sit There and LET THEM EAT ME????????
#170 by Texan Mama on December 10, 2008 - 5:30 PM
Oh, gosh, I don’t know what to type. I don’t know what to say. You have, continue to be, there for me in the last month. What can I do? Don’t email me back if you don’t feel like it… I know the last thing I wanted to do was talk about it to a zillion different people. Please just know, I’m not just saying how sorry I am. I am really feeling your loss. I sincerely do. And, maybe, the best thing I can do for you is to just leave you alone. If that’s what you want. Sometimes we need to be alone to figure things out without a hundred voices telling us what to think. So, I am here if you want to talk, but I care enough that I will keep my distance too.
I know you understand what I mean.
Texan Mamas last blog post..Toot, Fart, Moo
#171 by Loralee on December 10, 2008 - 5:31 PM
Dear god.
Lotus.
I am sobbing my eyes out and truly heartbroken…you would think that I would know what to say but I feel so wretched and horrible for you and yours.
It isn’t fair.
Loralees last blog post..“Caroling, caroling, now we HO, Christmas bells are ringing…”
#172 by Dory on December 10, 2008 - 5:33 PM
I’m so very sorry, Lotus. I have no idea of the pain that you must be facing, but I wish there was something I could do to soothe it. All I can do is pray for you, and I promise I will.
Dorys last blog post..Ain’t no such thing as a homeless playah.
#173 by Christine on December 10, 2008 - 5:39 PM
Oh my gosh Lotus, I’m so sorry. My heart is breaking for you guys. *Sending you big bear cyberhugs.*
Christines last blog post..RIP Jasper
#174 by Cassandra {Simply Fearless} on December 10, 2008 - 5:44 PM
Lotus ~
You are Simply Fearless for allowing us to be a part of this process with you. I admire you for your courage, strength, and sarcasm. Cry, scream, vent, kick, hug, smile, love…do and be it all whenever you want and need to.
Love ~
Cassandra
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#175 by nancypants on December 10, 2008 - 5:47 PM
Oh Lotus… I’m so sorry for your loss.
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#176 by Lottifish on December 10, 2008 - 5:59 PM
I’m so sorry Lotus. Hang in there. We’re all thinking about you.
Lottifishs last blog post..Mind Games
#177 by Gabriel on December 10, 2008 - 6:19 PM
I had to come back, partly to see if you had said anything, partly because I still can’t believe it.
I had one of the busiest days I can remember today, and I still couldn’t stop thinking about you guys…I guess that’s all I can say.
Gabriels last blog post..50/50
#178 by Amber/@jerseymomma on December 10, 2008 - 6:21 PM
My heart breaks for you girl– same horrible thing happened to me in September. Our angel got to 9 weeks, but I didn’t find out until 13. Words didn’t help me so i’m not even going to try to say something meaningful, but know that my prayers are with you and your family and your sweet angel in heaven ;(
#179 by sweetney on December 10, 2008 - 6:22 PM
lady, i’m so so sorry. there are no words. every ounce of love i have i give to you. xoxo
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#180 by anja on December 10, 2008 - 6:24 PM
Long time lurker coming out of the mist.
I’m so very, very sorry. This has to be the worst thing to happen to any woman. My thoughts are with you.
anjas last blog post..Have yourself a Pagan sort of Christmas.
#181 by Kerri Anne on December 10, 2008 - 6:25 PM
Big hugs to you, babe.
#182 by ali on December 10, 2008 - 6:33 PM
i’m so so so sorry. hugs and more hugs
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#183 by Tracy D on December 10, 2008 - 6:35 PM
Big Hugs. I am so sorry. Nothing else to say. We all love you….
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#184 by Angella on December 10, 2008 - 6:37 PM
So, so sorry Lotus.
Hugs and prayers.
Angellas last blog post..Bodies In Motivation
#185 by Karen on December 10, 2008 - 6:37 PM
I’m so sorry sweetheart.
#186 by Chicky Chicky Baby on December 10, 2008 - 6:41 PM
I’m so very sorry.
xoxo
Chicky Chicky Babys last blog post..On the bright side, my dry cleaner is thinking of making me part of the family
#187 by workout mommy on December 10, 2008 - 6:42 PM
omg, i am so sorry!
workout mommys last blog post..Confession time
#188 by Evelyn on December 10, 2008 - 6:49 PM
I’m so sorry, Lotus. I have no concept of the pain you must be in, but I have lit a candle for you, your baby and your family a million miles away in London and I look forward to reading about happiness returning to your life soon.
#189 by Jenny on December 10, 2008 - 6:51 PM
you CAN do this.
love you, jenny
#190 by merlotmom on December 10, 2008 - 6:53 PM
It’s been a while since I’ve commented but I read your last few posts…I am so sorry for your loss. I, too, lost a baby at 10 weeks and it was really difficult. Sometimes it helps to believe that it’s your body’s way of telling you this one wasn’t meant to be. I believed that after the subsequent birth of my son, because he would not be here otherwise. Be gentle on yourself and heal.
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#191 by Margot on December 10, 2008 - 6:54 PM
I don’t have any words, but I want to post so you know I’m crying for you and reaching out to you with my heart, Lotus.
#192 by Jessica on December 10, 2008 - 7:02 PM
I’m so very sorry! Many hugs!
#193 by Gina on December 10, 2008 - 7:07 PM
I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Ginas last blog post..Photo Meme
#194 by pgoodness on December 10, 2008 - 7:09 PM
Oh, no. NO. I am so extraordinarily sad and sorry that this has happened. I know my tears don’t help the pain of this, but please know that we’re all thinking of you.
#195 by Domestic Extraordinaire on December 10, 2008 - 7:13 PM
Oh Lotus, I am so very sorry. Many hugs coming out to you. It sucks. That is all. ((((hugs)))))
Domestic Extraordinaires last blog post..I’m here
#196 by Carrie on December 10, 2008 - 7:26 PM
I’m so sorry to hear about your loss.
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#197 by Maria on December 10, 2008 - 7:35 PM
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.
Marias last blog post..Roundup of Random
#198 by tiff on December 10, 2008 - 7:55 PM
Lotus,
I am so sorry.
There are no words and yet there are… so many.
You will find your voice again, my friend but be kind and gentle with yourself.
Grief is a long long journey.
Thinking of you as you make those first wobbly steps.
#199 by Tanya on December 10, 2008 - 8:09 PM
I’m so sorry Lotus. Your post made me stop in my tracks. I know theres nothing else that can be said because so many people have said it already. xx
#200 by Kelly on December 10, 2008 - 8:16 PM
I read your blog quite often, but have never commented before. I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart just sank when I read your post. Life can be so unfair sometimes. Wishing you strength and peace.
#201 by Amy on December 10, 2008 - 8:21 PM
You don’t know me. And I only know you through the joy you give me when I read your blog. There are no words to explain this. I am sorry. Which may or may not matter. I am thinking of you.
#202 by ccr in MA on December 10, 2008 - 8:23 PM
I’m so sorry for your loss. You are all in my thoughts.
#203 by Deb on December 10, 2008 - 8:24 PM
Lotus,
I’m numb. I cannot fathom that this is happening once again to you. I am so glad to see that so many people have commented and given you their support. We all love you and again will ride this wild ride with you the best we can.
Damn it.
Damn it.
Damn it.
Love to you all.
Debs last blog post..Will you come visit me when they take me away?
#204 by Stella on December 10, 2008 - 8:28 PM
My heart is breaking for you. I can’t express how sorry I am. Take care of yourself.
Stellas last blog post..Help! I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
#205 by Marilyn Porter on December 10, 2008 - 8:44 PM
wow. Just…. wow.
I’m so sorry to hear this. I cannot believe this has happened to you again… 
I had something similar happen in my miscarriage. I went in for an appointment at 11weeks 1 day and went back a month later only to find out that the bean had made it to 11 weeks 2 days. I had thought it safe to share the news after the last appointment and rudely had that hope taken away. So I do know a little of how that hurts… And I just wanted to say that I’m SO SO sorry. There isn’t anything to make it okay. Not a thing. It’s unfair, it’s awful and I hate that it has happened to you. Again.
#206 by moosh in indy. on December 10, 2008 - 8:47 PM
BOO.
xoxo
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#207 by Mandy/Mommy Cracked on December 10, 2008 - 8:50 PM
Oh honey.
I am so, so sorry. I know there are just no words…
You are in my prayers.
Mandy/Mommy Crackeds last blog post..Good Reads
#208 by gorillabuns on December 10, 2008 - 9:02 PM
I’m so very sorry.
#209 by Brooke on December 10, 2008 - 9:14 PM
I am so, so sorry for your loss. I lost two pregnancies this year, also. The heartwrenching emotion is horrible. You’re in my thoughts.
#210 by Corina on December 10, 2008 - 9:17 PM
Lotus:
There are no words. (and you wouldn’t want them from me anyway….. I suck at words at times like this). You are in my thoughts, dear friend. Honestly, if there is anything that I can do for you, please ask. I am much better at action.
Wrapping you in hugs….
#211 by Kerry on December 10, 2008 - 9:17 PM
No, No, No!
Just wanted to say how shocked and sorry I am for you. I can’t imagine how your heart must be breaking right now.
Just wanted to send hugs.
Kerrys last blog post..Sub for Santa
#212 by bethany actually on December 10, 2008 - 9:18 PM
Loralee sent me this way. I just wanted to say I am so very sorry for your loss. I’m saying a prayer for you and your family right now.
#213 by 4 on December 10, 2008 - 9:27 PM
I understand. I feel your pain and sorrow. I wish for peace and hope in your heart.
I understand!
4s last blog post..Do What You Have To Do
#214 by Special K on December 10, 2008 - 9:39 PM
No. No. No. I don’t know what to say, words don’t suffice. I have been through this 3 times and it’s just heart wrenching to see people go through it because you know what they are feeling but you also know there is no solace in words.
(((HUGS))
#215 by Annie on December 10, 2008 - 9:55 PM
I’m so sorry Lotus. Many, many, many hugs…
Annies last blog post..I’m done, I’m done, I’m done!
#216 by Patsy Bain on December 10, 2008 - 10:22 PM
Dear sweet Lotus, A tear just rolled down my cheek. I wish I could hold you and rock you and — there are no words — Please know you are in my prayers I ask God (whom I know you are angry at right now,but don’t turn away from Him in your anger, seek Him) to help you through this; to give you some peace.
Patsy Bains last blog post..And So I Wait
#217 by Kristie on December 10, 2008 - 10:22 PM
Lotus! I am so so so so sorry to read this! My heart just sinks for you! Please hang in there! We are all here for you. <3 all the way from Texas ~Kristie
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#218 by Backpacking Dad on December 10, 2008 - 10:39 PM
motherFUCK
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#219 by flutter on December 10, 2008 - 10:45 PM
coming out of hiding to say how sorry I am
flutters last blog post..We’re all crazy
#220 by Lisa on December 10, 2008 - 10:45 PM
*hugs*
#221 by Redneck Mommy on December 10, 2008 - 10:45 PM
Oh Lotus.
I’m so sorry. From the bottom of my heart.
I love you.
Redneck Mommys last blog post..The Journey…Part Three
#222 by Heather on December 10, 2008 - 10:46 PM
Echoing Backpacking Dad, because I don’t know what else to say.
Heathers last blog post..He’s Watching Here
#223 by bejewell on December 10, 2008 - 10:53 PM
Heartbroken for you. No more words.
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#224 by Mom101 on December 10, 2008 - 10:56 PM
Am so very very sorry.
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#225 by Chag on December 10, 2008 - 10:57 PM
My thoughts are with you guys.
Chags last blog post..Thanks
#226 by michellew_ on December 10, 2008 - 10:57 PM
It seems meaningless, but add another very heartfelt I’m so so sorry to the pile.
#227 by foradifferentkindofgirl (FADKOG) on December 10, 2008 - 11:02 PM
My heart is broken for you and your family. So many of us have been where you are today. Please know all our arms are wrapped around you.
foradifferentkindofgirl (FADKOG)s last blog post..file under A for ‘awesome, these things are not’
#228 by Karen@If I Could Escape . . . on December 10, 2008 - 11:02 PM
I am so very sorry for your loss. Hugs. Karen xxxx
Karen@If I Could Escape . . .s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday . . .
#229 by Leslie on December 10, 2008 - 11:18 PM
Lotus, I am so sorry.
#230 by Jean on December 10, 2008 - 11:21 PM
Oh my goodness. This is so horrible. I am over here crying. I am so sorry Lotus. I will be praying for you.
Jeans last blog post..Glamour Magazine’s Woman Of The Year 2008 – Ten Year Old Nujood Mohammed Ali
#231 by Matthew on December 10, 2008 - 11:26 PM
I’m so sorry for your loss.
Matthews last blog post..Wordless Wednesday: Dandy Flowers
#232 by Christina on December 10, 2008 - 11:29 PM
I am so sorry. Life truly isn’t fair sometimes, and for you I wish it was fair. Hugs.
Christinas last blog post..How A Bendy Straw Nearly Made Me Cry
#233 by Hecticmom Undone on December 10, 2008 - 11:31 PM
Oh no…..
I’m so so sorry… No words except for those…
Hecticmom Undones last blog post..Pomegranate
#234 by janelle on December 10, 2008 - 11:34 PM
That sucks in such a big way. I’m just so sorry! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{lotus}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
janelles last blog post..I’m Baaaaaaaaaaaaack!
#235 by Julie on December 10, 2008 - 11:40 PM
I read about this on Loralee’s blog.
I am sorry to hear of your loss. I lost a baby at eleven weeks too over a year ago. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.
Julies last blog post..Pics from trip #15 to Bluefin Bay
#236 by Thomas on December 10, 2008 - 11:45 PM
So short, sweet, and to the point, it’s almost poetic. Was that your intention?
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#237 by Barb @ getupandplay on December 10, 2008 - 11:55 PM
Words fail. I’m so sorry.
#238 by Cindy on December 11, 2008 - 12:03 AM
Lotus, I am so sorry. You will be in my prayers.
Cindys last blog post..Um…oops!
#239 by Amanda on December 11, 2008 - 12:57 AM
oh Lotus, I am so very sorry for your loss. Your in my thoughts and prayers sweety.
If you want to talk I am here for you,
Amandas last blog post..The Little Mermaid II: Return to the Sea Special Edition Giveaway
#240 by Lisa @ Crazy Adventures in Parenting on December 11, 2008 - 1:05 AM
I’m so sorry
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#241 by Mrs. F on December 11, 2008 - 1:15 AM
I am so sorry you are going through this again, Lotus!
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#242 by Kay on December 11, 2008 - 1:15 AM
wow Lolo, I’m so sorry. It doesn’t mean much. But man, people sure give a crap about you. As of 1:15AM, 240 people left comments expressing sympathy! That’s love man. You are in me and Karleigh’s prayers. Maybe she can come visit you soon! xoxo
#243 by Chrissy on December 11, 2008 - 1:21 AM
{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}} No words from me could ever help ease your pain, so only hugs.
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#244 by Secret Agent Mommy on December 11, 2008 - 1:31 AM
No words are enough. I am so sorry.
Secret Agent Mommys last blog post..and it needs to have a greenhouse attached to the kitchen
#245 by Kat on December 11, 2008 - 2:03 AM
Fuck. Goddamfuckshithell.
Oh my God, Lotus, I’m so sorry.
Kats last blog post..The Godchild and Her Questions
#246 by Christie on December 11, 2008 - 2:17 AM
I am so, so sorry.
Christies last blog post..Goodbye, Hello
#247 by Christina on December 11, 2008 - 2:39 AM
I am so sorry. I’m trying to find the right words but I’ve got nothing.
My thoughts are with you and your family.
#248 by Lightening on December 11, 2008 - 2:44 AM
Oh Lotus, I’m so so sorry. Words fail me.
I SO wish I had a magic wand that could make all this better. {{{HUGS}}}} and thoughts for all of you in this difficult time.
#249 by Taz on December 11, 2008 - 4:57 AM
big hugs
sorry to hear
am thinking of you
Tazs last blog post..the change
#250 by Vic on December 11, 2008 - 5:36 AM
Oh sugar. We both know there’s nothing I can say, but the hugs are there, as am I. Whatever you need.
Vics last blog post..You left me standing in the rain
#251 by Kelley on December 11, 2008 - 5:50 AM
Girl, I understand.
If you need someone to talk to, you know my addy.
Kelleys last blog post..Santa can bite my smooth white arse.
#252 by Maritza on December 11, 2008 - 5:54 AM
Sorry to hear of your loss dearest. We are trying to conceive our first little one. Not in the groove yet.
But I am praying for you, as I had a few friends losing their babies. Not nice, heartbreaking, but with that comes grace, peace & strength.
Hugs from South Africa
Maritza
xxxx
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#253 by frogpondsrock on December 11, 2008 - 6:13 AM
Oh Sweetheart I am so very very very sorry… xxxxxx a million hugs for you xxxxxxxx
#254 by sarah walsworth on December 11, 2008 - 7:39 AM
My prayers are with you..
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#255 by witchypoo on December 11, 2008 - 7:46 AM
Oh, darlin.
You are in my heart.
witchypoos last blog post..Remember Newhart?
#256 by Andy Bailey on December 11, 2008 - 8:14 AM
I’ve been staring at this comment form for 5 minutes and I still don’t know what to say. I’m sorry for your loss and I hope your bright personality deals with it like you deal with everything and get back to full Lotus-ness so we can all enjoy your smiles again.
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#257 by MP on December 11, 2008 - 8:49 AM
I was hoping this wasn’t what you were talking about and I’ve avoided your blog because I didn’t want negative fuzzball news. I was in denial.
I am SO sorry for your loss Lotus, truly truly sorry.
#258 by Deb on December 11, 2008 - 9:14 AM
So very sorry. Sending you love.
#259 by Hayden's Mommy on December 11, 2008 - 9:27 AM
Lotus – I’ve never posted a comment and have always just seflshly enjoyed reading all about you without giving anything of myself. However, I feel compelled today to fly to Nashville and wrap my arms around you and cry a bajillion tears with you. Please know that I will pray for you and your family’s loss and I know that nothing in the world can fill the void you have right now. Take comfort in knowing that hundreds of people who only know you from your blog are lifting you up and hoping for the speedy passage of the pain you’re experiencing. It’s trite to say and you probably will want to write back with lots of fancy expletives (that you are so good with **smile**) when I say this, but time does heal and unfortunately, that’s what it will take. I am so, so very sorry.
#260 by Danielle on December 11, 2008 - 9:31 AM
damn.
I’m sorry. So sorry.
Thinking of you.
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#261 by Angie on December 11, 2008 - 9:41 AM
I am so sorry for your loss. I know that it is hard. Been through it myself and had to have an emergency hystorectomy last Dec. Never had children of my own…. It will get get easier and you will never forget. Much Love!
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#262 by Heather, Queen of Shake Shake on December 11, 2008 - 10:01 AM
Oh god, Lotus. I am so utterly and deeply sorry.
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#263 by Jenn on December 11, 2008 - 10:08 AM
Oh honey. I wish I could give you a hug.
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#264 by RockAndRollinHerHeartAndSoul on December 11, 2008 - 10:18 AM
Lotus. Every day i wake up, turn on my computer, and read about your previous day, the latest cute thing Braden has done and your view on the world. Like so many, i look forward to it. But , not this. I lost my own mom 2 weeks ago.I’m sure that it isn’t at all like the loss you’re having to deal with, but know that we all can relate to this somehow. Please be so fucking strong,not for us, not for John, or even your son. But for you. Be angry, as i know you are, and sad, and confused. But don’t forget to be happy aswell. That’s strength.
#265 by Maggie's Mind on December 11, 2008 - 10:18 AM
I’m just now catching up, and Lotus, that just really sucks, and my heart breaks for you. Please be gentle with you.
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#266 by Donna (A Grown-up) on December 11, 2008 - 10:39 AM
I will join into the chorus of “I’m so sorry.” Sorry doesn’t seem enough, and yet it’s all I can offer besides prayer. You, Braden and John are very much in my thoughts and prayers right now. (((hugs)))
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#267 by Mrs. Schmitty on December 11, 2008 - 10:45 AM
Oh sweetie, I just found out. I am so very, VERY sorry and sad to hear this terrible news. Just know you are in my thoughts.
#268 by Karen on December 11, 2008 - 11:18 AM
My heart is crying for you. I don’t know what else to say.
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#269 by Jen on December 11, 2008 - 12:59 PM
I never comment on a stranger’s blog and I rarely cry. I’m doing both now. You don’t feel like a stranger to me (just strange).
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#270 by ImpostorMom on December 11, 2008 - 1:27 PM
Oh god, i’m so sorry.
#271 by Honeybell on December 11, 2008 - 1:30 PM
Hang on Lotus. You can do this, you can get through it. I promise.
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#272 by nashvegas on December 11, 2008 - 1:38 PM
I’m sorry. So, so sorry.
#273 by Christine on December 11, 2008 - 2:21 PM
Thinking of you, BC.
If this helps at all…I lost two pregnancies in between my children. The second one was at just over 10 weeks, after we’d seen a heartbeat.
I with there were more to say…just know you’re in my thoughts.
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#274 by Megryansmom on December 11, 2008 - 2:53 PM
I’m very sorry for your loss
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#275 by LVGurl on December 11, 2008 - 3:04 PM
I am so sorry
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#276 by Jenny on December 11, 2008 - 3:42 PM
I am so sorry. So very sorry.
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#277 by FireMom on December 11, 2008 - 3:44 PM
Your family is in our thoughts and prayers. There are no words, I know this.
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#278 by Krista on December 11, 2008 - 3:54 PM
I have never commented before, but i’m delurking to say – I can’t even imagine how much you are hurting right now. You are strong; I know you will get thru this. You are in my prayers.
#279 by Stacy on December 11, 2008 - 4:40 PM
It sucks. I know that it does.
I am sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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#280 by Becky Y on December 11, 2008 - 4:41 PM
*hugs* I have no words…
Becky Ys last blog post..Happy Birthday!
#281 by Kelly on December 11, 2008 - 4:49 PM
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You and your family are in my heart.
#282 by Sarah on December 11, 2008 - 4:50 PM
Last month I lost my baby at 11 weeks. It is a horrible experience to go through. I am sorry!
#283 by stephanie on December 11, 2008 - 5:16 PM
Lotus, I am sosososo sorry. I am crying with you. I wish there was something I could do. If there is, let me know. My heart is aching for you.
#284 by OHmommy on December 11, 2008 - 5:23 PM
I am so incredibly sorry for you. Hugs.
OHmommys last blog post..Never in a million years…
#285 by Laurie on December 11, 2008 - 6:13 PM
So sorry you are going through this. :hug:
#286 by Carissa on December 11, 2008 - 6:14 PM
Words can not express the sorrow I have for you. So, so sorry for your loss.
#287 by MaryAnn on December 11, 2008 - 7:19 PM
Heartbroken for you. Know that you are in my prayers -
xoxo
#288 by ~Sheryl on December 11, 2008 - 7:45 PM
I wish I had the words that would comfort you… even a little.
{{{hugs}}}
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#289 by Martha on December 11, 2008 - 9:28 PM
I am so sorry for your loss dear. It just sucks.
Marthas last blog post..First day at the Magic Kingdom
#290 by Karen on December 11, 2008 - 10:19 PM
Oh Lotus.
I am SO sorry.
I’m crying for you.
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#291 by nonlineargirl on December 11, 2008 - 10:54 PM
I am so sorry for you loss.
nonlineargirls last blog post..What I am Thinking While They are Talking
#292 by Tranny Head on December 11, 2008 - 11:26 PM
Oh, honey. What a terrible blow.
I can’t possibly imagine what you’re going through, but am so very sorry for your loss.
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#293 by Barbara on December 11, 2008 - 11:32 PM
I am so sorry for your loss.
hugs.
Barbara
#294 by Lisa Russell on December 11, 2008 - 11:42 PM
I’m so sorry – I wish I could send you a hug and I’m not pretending it would even help. Love you, that’s about it.
Lisa Russells last blog post..At least he brought home a note
#295 by Malia on December 11, 2008 - 11:49 PM
I’m so sorry Lotus. This sucks and I hurt for you right now. Just. Really. Sucks.
Malias last blog post..Wading in the shallows
#296 by Vicky (Secret Mom Thoughts) on December 12, 2008 - 8:16 AM
I’m so sorry.
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#297 by Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah on December 12, 2008 - 9:03 AM
I am so very very sorry for your loss.
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#298 by Anna Ellis on December 12, 2008 - 9:27 AM
Lotus, Beautiful Lotus, I love you. I am so sorry. Call me anytime if you want to talk. 694-4829. I’m always here. =(
#299 by WeaselMomma on December 12, 2008 - 9:30 AM
I am sorry. There are no words that will help, so I won’t offer any more. Just know that I am sorry.
WeaselMommas last blog post..Speechless
#300 by Loraine on December 12, 2008 - 10:46 AM
I’m so sorry for your loss. There really are no words.
Loraines last blog post..Protesting the “Made In China” label
#301 by Lea on December 12, 2008 - 11:15 AM
I’m so sorry for you loss. I know these words can feel empty, but please know they come from the heart.
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#302 by Lena on December 12, 2008 - 12:11 PM
I am so very sorry. I wish there was something comforting that I can say but I know there really isn’t. Know that you are in my thoughts.
#303 by Momisodes on December 12, 2008 - 12:25 PM
I am so sorry Lotus. My heartbreaks for all of you. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am always here for you. Just say the word. Hang in there.
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#304 by Katherine (SOLO dot MOM) on December 12, 2008 - 1:02 PM
I am so so sorry for your loss. I came across your site again and found your recent post.
Katherine (SOLO dot MOM)s last blog post..Secret Christmas Wish
#305 by Joyce-Anne on December 12, 2008 - 1:22 PM
I’m sorry Lotus. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Btw, I’m visiting you through Suzanne (Suzannesez and Lou (Lceel).
#306 by Q's Mommy on December 12, 2008 - 1:29 PM
I have never commented before, but today I feel the need to come out of hiding and tell you that I have thought of you sooooo many times in the last couple of days, and my heart is literally breaking for you.
I am so impossibly sorry for your loss, and these (rare) tears I shed are for you.
#307 by Dolce on December 12, 2008 - 2:08 PM
I am so sorry. I am 10 weeks along and I thought I was in the clear. I can’t believe it and I’m so desperately sorry!!!
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#308 by jeck on December 12, 2008 - 4:50 PM
I was coming by to check in on you and I hate reading your post. The first thought was FUCK!!! I understand how it feels and it just sucks on every level! Hugs!
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#309 by Heather B. on December 12, 2008 - 4:52 PM
Oh wow. I’m so sorry, Lotus.
#310 by Tara R. on December 12, 2008 - 5:37 PM
I am so very sorry.
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#311 by Kari C on December 12, 2008 - 5:43 PM
I cannot express how sorry I am for your loss, of everything this meant to you. I wish you knew how you are not on the downward slide alone. My heart aches for you and your family.
#312 by Jennifer on December 12, 2008 - 6:31 PM
I am sorry to hear.
#313 by Laura on December 12, 2008 - 6:42 PM
I’m so sorry for your loss.
Lauras last blog post..How much do we love Santa?
#314 by neutron on December 12, 2008 - 7:24 PM
xoxoxo
#315 by Barbara on December 12, 2008 - 8:36 PM
I’m so, so sorry. I wish I could take your pain for you. xxx
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#316 by flickrlovr on December 12, 2008 - 9:06 PM
Shit.
I am so, so very sorry Lotus. I can’t think of anything else to say.
I don’t think anything any of us have would really do justice at this point.
You’re in my heart tonight. And Fuzzball is too.
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#317 by Tara R. on December 12, 2008 - 9:15 PM
ah honey, I’m just reading this now. I’m so very sorry. My heart aches for you.
Tara R.s last blog post..Christmas Concert
#318 by myst on December 12, 2008 - 9:17 PM
I am so very sorry Lotus,
heartbroken for you,
G
xxx
mysts last blog post..Part Two
#319 by Kat on December 12, 2008 - 9:36 PM
Sending you love and hugs girlie. So sorry.
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#320 by Allyson on December 12, 2008 - 10:00 PM
I want to cry with you now. I’m so very sorry.
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#321 by Siobhan on December 12, 2008 - 10:13 PM
I’m so sorry to hear of this Lotus. Sending you both strength and peace at this very difficult time.
#322 by NotAMeanGirl on December 12, 2008 - 10:31 PM
I am SO sorry. I know all too well how you feel.
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#323 by Trish on December 12, 2008 - 11:04 PM
My heart goes out to you . Immense sadness. I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to another angel baby. That you have to experience more heartbreak. That I cannot begin to imagine, and my heart hurts so much for you Lotus and your family.
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#324 by Trula on December 13, 2008 - 8:24 AM
I just came across your blog, and don’t want to be presumptuous. but here’s a virtual (((hug)))
I’ve had 2 miscarriages…what a rough time you are going through. you have my condolences.
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#325 by Avril on December 13, 2008 - 8:45 AM
Oh no .. that’s very sad. My thoughts are with you while you heal.
#326 by LAKSHMI on December 13, 2008 - 12:17 PM
I’M SO SORRY. I LOST MY FIRST, A GIRL, 9 WEEKS INTO THE PREGNANCY, AFTER I HAD SEEN HER TINY HEART BEATING ONLY A COUPLE WEEKS BEFORE.
#327 by Swistle on December 13, 2008 - 4:11 PM
I’m so, so sorry.
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#328 by Holly Jahangiri on December 13, 2008 - 4:23 PM
Lotus, I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. It’s never easy, but the holidays just make it harder.
Holly Jahangiris last blog post..Zucchini Bread: A Tastier Way to Eat Your Veggies
#329 by Wendy on December 13, 2008 - 7:21 PM
Oh, I am soooo, sooo sorry. I was praying for you and fuzzball. I will keep you in my prayers during this Christmas season, which I’m sure is going to be so difficult for you! I wish you peace.
#330 by Gattina on December 14, 2008 - 1:14 AM
I went through that too, I know it hurts ! Only time can heal a bit.So sorry for you !
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#331 by PlanningQueen on December 14, 2008 - 3:56 AM
I dreaded opening this item in my reader – I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that you will make it through this devastating time with the support and love of your friends and family.
#332 by texasholly @ June Cleaver Nirvana on December 14, 2008 - 9:18 AM
I am thinking about you.
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#333 by Susan on December 14, 2008 - 11:26 AM
I’m so incredibly sorry for you and your family.
You’ll be in my thoughts today, I hope you are doing ok.
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#334 by Musing on December 14, 2008 - 12:16 PM
I’m so very sorry. My heart goes out to you.
#335 by daysgoby on December 14, 2008 - 12:22 PM
Oh, Lotus, I’m so sorry.
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#336 by Elizabeth on December 14, 2008 - 6:28 PM
oh sweetie, I’m so sorry. I subscribe to your feed but I’m way behind in reading, so I’m just reading this now. Sending you big virtual hugs.
#337 by Amy on December 14, 2008 - 9:11 PM
Oh, I am just so sorry. Praying!
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#338 by Karen MEG on December 14, 2008 - 9:57 PM
Lotus, this is heartbreaking. I am so, so sorry.
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#339 by Aly @ Lip Zip on December 14, 2008 - 10:05 PM
Found you through Momisodes and just wanted to send my heartfelt condolences. I hope you have someone you can talk to. If you ever need the ear of someone you don’t know, I have two that are ready for listening.
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#340 by crunchy on December 15, 2008 - 8:39 PM
Oh crap…Oh I am sooo sorry.
My heart is breaking for you….
crunchys last blog post..Christmas is Coming…
#341 by Missives From Suburbia on December 16, 2008 - 1:28 AM
Oh, Lotus. I’m so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family right now — especially those sweet little babies who should be in your arms right now.
Missives From Suburbias last blog post..Maternity Leave
#342 by PiaG on December 19, 2008 - 8:52 AM
I’m so so so sorry. My heart aches for you.
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#343 by Her Bad Mother on December 22, 2008 - 8:49 PM
Oh, sweet lady. I AM SO SORRY.
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#344 by Mary "MauiMary" on December 28, 2008 - 8:45 PM
Oh, God. I’m so sorry. I should have read more before posting. I feel like such a jerk! Thinking of y’all.
#345 by Carolyn Bahm on December 30, 2008 - 10:13 PM
Oh, no. I am heartsick for you and your family and the loss you have suffered once again. I hope the world around you is gentle while you grieve and heal.
#346 by melissa @ the inspired room on January 12, 2009 - 3:40 PM
I am so sorry. I too lost a baby at 11 weeks. It was the hardest thing ever.
{hugs & tears for you}
#347 by GoaldeeBug on January 26, 2009 - 2:15 PM
FUCK
I’m not sure what else to say. *hugs*
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