Another Swan to fold.
As I write this post, it is Tuesday morning.
John and I have waited since Saturday night for news about our baby.
I started bleeding on Saturday night.
The experience continued through the weekend and into Monday. I won’t describe it in detail.
I had blood tests on Monday. The results we got this morning confirmed the worst.
It was a miscarriage.
The baby I had already begun to love is gone.
I feel rather empty, in more ways than one.
I need to go hold my son very tightly and be held very tightly by my husband.
I may not post for awhile – not sure. I appreciate your patience and understanding while I carefully fold another Swan.





punk rock mom
hugs to you.
punk rock mom’s last blog post..How I Met PR Dad
Amanda
I am so sorry. Hugs to you, John, and sweet little Braden.
Amanda’s last blog post..Tuesdays with Dorie – Fluted Polenta and Ricotta Cake
Maggie's Mind
I’m sorry, Lotus. I’ve been down a very similar road that ended a little differently but still the same. It sucks. Hugs.
Maggie’s Mind’s last blog post..The A Part of the Q & A Part One
aliza at babyfruit
so sorry for your loss.
a twitter friend & miscarriage/mommyblogger.
aliza at babyfruit’s last blog post..Sweat But No Blood
seven
Ohhhh… I’m so sorry. Hugs.
seven’s last blog post..I Have Always Found This Hilarious.
Mr Lady
I ache for you. Anything I can do; you know where to find me. Like, show you my BOOBIES or ANYTHING.
Mr Lady’s last blog post..Psst…
Walking With Scissors
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss.
Walking With Scissors’s last blog post..A Story With no point or Purpose. Just ‘Cause.
Megan
Oh, no. I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Megan’s last blog post..A real IM conversation with my mother
Gabriel
I’m very, very sorry. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. You’re a great woman, and you have a great man by your side. You will make it through it.
I’m sending you all the hugs I can give.
Gabriel’s last blog post..WW#20 – Gardening with Mom (and Dad)
the planet of janet
oh sweetie, i’m so sorry. i’ve been there and i know the ache.
i’m sending hugs.
the planet of janet’s last blog post..How I met my honey … Well, actually, more like how we got engaged
Twitter: planetofjanet
karla ~ looking towards heaven
I am so sorry, sweet girl.
Hugs to you.
xo ~K
karla ~ looking towards heaven’s last blog post..Setting myself up for some public humiliation
Xbox4NappyRash
Just, Sorry.
Xbox4NappyRash’s last blog post..Allez Les Bleus!
Violet The Verbose
Wishing you and your family well in this time of hurt. Many hugs.
Violet The Verbose’s last blog post..Depressed and Scared
Taz
aww hun..
biggest hugs to you..
thinking of you..
Taz’s last blog post..27 Weeks Old
Kelley
Oh my lovely. I feel your pain. I ache for you. Nothing anyone can say can take this hurt away but know that everyone is here for you. Shout to the universe how unfair it is and then hold your beautiful boy and rejoice in him.
<3
Kelley’s last blog post..You just lost the game.
river
Bugger. Buggerbuggerbugger…and Damn!!
Rachael
I’m so sorry. Hugs to you – take care of yourself.
Rachael’s last blog post..Friend 2: Sati
Twitter: rachael1013
Kara - down to earth mommy
Oh Lotus, My heart aches for you.
Hugs and prayers for your dear family.
Kara – down to earth mommy’s last blog post..And the secret ingredient is…..
Shannymar
We <3 you. Take your time, we’ll all be waiting patiently for your return.
::Hugs::
Shannymar’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday #19-Day at the pool
Shannymar
We <3 you. Take your time, we’ll all be waiting patiently for your return.
::Hugs::
Shannymar
We <3 you. Take your time, we’ll all be waiting patiently for your return.
::Hugs::..
Shannymar
We <3 you. Take your time, we’ll all be waiting patiently for your return.
::Hugs::..
Lilacspecs
I am so very very sorry for you Lotus, and your family. You have my best wishes while you take the time to come to terms with your grief.
Lilacspecs’s last blog post..I Might Join Your Century But Only As a Doubtful Guest
Veronica
I just want to wrap you up and feed you chocolate and stroke your hand. Seriously.
This shit sucks.
xxx
Veronica’s last blog post..The Taste Of Bitterness
Michelle
I’m so sorry.
I pray you and your family can grieve how you need to for as long as you need to. No need to hurry through this on our account.
Michelle
Make that…please don’t hurry through this on our account
Andie Summerkiss
I am so sorry to hear that. I hope you and your family can go through this difficult time.
Love and hugs to you.
Andie Summerkiss’s last blog post..Math and Logic
AnnD
I’m so very sorry for your loss. My heart, thoughts and prayers will be with you and John during this difficult time. Take care of you.
AnnD’s last blog post..Still needing some neutrophils and prayers!
witchypoo
I am so sorry. I hope you three can come together stronger than ever by supporting one another through this heartache. Plus you have the well wishes of loads of strangers.
witchypoo’s last blog post..Today Was Boobie Sandwich Day
Beth_C
I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Beth_C’s last blog post..Works For Me Wednesday – Jalapeno Popper Spread
Bettina
I’m very sorry hon. Many hugs to you.
Bettina’s last blog post..Screw Up Tuesday.
Z
I am so sorry. I hope your day consists of lots of holding and being held, and doing whatever you and your family need to get through this…
Z’s last blog post..Impressions
Jamie
I’m so so sorry sweetie.
ALISON
I am so very sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry.
ALISON’s last blog post..Sunday in The Park
HRH
I am so sorry. This is one case where I can say I do know how bad that can be. Be sad. It is OK. I am always sad every year in April because I had a miscarriage on 4-4-04. I will never forget it. I will always wonder what if. I will always dream for what wasn’t meant to be. I am so sorry for your loss.
HRH’s last blog post..Holly throws herself under the alternative-fuel bus…
Karen Sugarpants
Oh Lotus, I’m so sorry. May you find strength and peace very soon. xoxo
Karen Sugarpants’s last blog post..Sun
Terri
crap…I’m so sorry, it does hurt. I had a miscarriage between my 1st and 2nd sons, very early on, but I went on to have #2 and then #3 without incident (unless you count early deliveries). You’ll need the time to grieve but soon you can try again. Good luck.
Terri’s last blog post..30 days, 30 people: Wendy
Philly
So sorry to hear about your loss.
I’ve been there and I know how devastating it was.
Take care of yourself
Connie
I’m so very sorry. I had a son in between my other 2 sons that was born still @ 39 weeks~I know the pain of losing a child as well. It is the worst feeling in the world. Just turn to & support each other & depend on each other in every way you need to. Big hugs to you & your family.
Connie’s last blog post..THREE @ 4:09 PM
amy
I am so sorry for this. Just know that so many women are wrapping you round in their minds and hearts. xo
amy’s last blog post..Im stronger than the monster beneath your bed/Smarter than the tricks played on your heart
Law Student Hot Mama
I’m so sorry for your loss! My thoughts are with you and your lovely little family!
Law Student Hot Mama’s last blog post..Since When Did the Discovery Health Channel Become the New Coney Island Freak Show?
Jeanette
I’m so sorry, honey. Thinking of you.
Jeanette’s last blog post..Weekly Winners
so grateful to be mormon
so sorry. “”hugs”" kathleen
so grateful to be mormon’s last blog post..meme — seven random oddball things about me — wanna play?
Malia
I’ve been there too, Lotus. Sending prayers and comforting thoughts your way.
Much love to you and your family!
Malia’s last blog post..The Dresses
Mandy
I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. I will be praying for you. Unfortunately, I too know the devastation….
Precious, tiny little one
You’ll always be to me
So perfect, pure and innocent -
Part of heaven’s family.
We dreamed of you and your life
And all that it would be.
We waited and longed for you to come
And join our family.
We never had the chance to play,
To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you, touch you now
And listen to you giggle.
I’ll always be your mother,
He’ll always be your dad.
You’ll always be our child,
The child that we had.
Now you’re gone…but yet you’re here
We sense you everywhere.
You’re our sorrow and our joy,
There’s love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong,
We’ll forget you never –
The child we had but never had,
And yet will have forever.
Mandy’s last blog post..Ah, cleanliness
Ree
I’m sorry Lotus. {{hugs}}
Ree’s last blog post..Brothers
Rebecca
I’m so sorry.
Lou Lohman
Oh, Lotus. I can’t tell you how sorry I am. Maybe your Swan and our Swan are up there, together, making friends with each other. And waiting.
Lou Lohman’s last blog post..introspection – why I blog
Twitter: lceel
Rachael
I apologize that I normally just lurk here, but I am so very sorry for your loss and for your pain. I lost my little one on Easter this year, and it was the worst kind of hurt.
*hug* for you and yours.
Karen
Lotus – I am sooo sorry for your loss. I am in the process of trying to heal from our miscarriage too (4-13-2008), and it hasn’t been easy but it is getting a little easier every day. I know that sounds horrible and maybe even impossible right now, but even though it’s only been a little over two short weeks for us, there has been much grieving and much healing. We will never forget (no, never!), but we are learning how to live again. I was 10-weeks exactly when it happened. E-mail me if you want.
Karen’s last blog post..Owwwww!
Janine
I’m so very sorry. I won’t say I know how it feels, because I don’t know how if feels for you, but I know it hurt me when I had my three losses. Thinking of you.
Krystyn
I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you.
Krystyn’s last blog post..Tuesday Toddler Tales
Proud theatre mom
Thinking of you and john and saying a prayer. So So sorry for your loss.
Proud theatre mom’s last blog post..How I met my honey
*pixie*
I am so, so sorry.
*pixie*’s last blog post..environments
MommyCosm
OH, WOW. That is just horrible. I’ll be thinking of you and sending some good thoughts and positive energy your way.
MommyCosm’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday or My Other Two Kids
kay
no words can express what I feel for you and your family now…you’re all in my prayers. xoxo
Rebecca
Oh, Lotus. I am so sorry for your loss.
We love you.
We’ll be here, waiting patiently, for you to return, whenever that is.
And we love you… but I already said that.
Rebecca
Rebecca’s last blog post..Our second anniversary
Twitter: ramblingreba
Deb
Oh Lotus,
My heart is breaking for you. I am so so sorry to hear about what you and John are going through. Don’t worry about us, you just do what you need to so that you can grieve appropriately. Thinking of you.
Deb’s last blog post..Better late than never
Josh
Lotus-
I am so saddened to hear of your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I pray that you will have peace from God that passes understanding and that you will be blessed as you mourn your loss.
Josh
The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. psm 18
Josh’s last blog post..TV Turn Off Week
A Jill of All Trades
I am so sorry.
I had a miscarriage a couple of years before Aidan so I know your dismay.
A Jill of All Trades’s last blog post..May 4, 2002
Angie Harrison
Lotus, I’m so sorry. I am sending up prayers for you. I know these are all just words, but you are loved by so many and we are all here for you.
Sarah
I too know that pain. I am so sorry. Hugs to you and your family.
Sarah’s last blog post..Weather
A Whole Lot of Nothing
Much much love.
I’m so sorry.
A Whole Lot of Nothing’s last blog post..Wordless 4.30.8
Ali
I’m so sorry Lotus and family.
Ali’s last blog post..featured sh*t!
A Jill of All Trades
I am so sorry.
I had a miscarriage a couple of years before Aidan so I know your dismay.
A Jill of All Trades’s last blog post..I’ve always known George and his posse were dicks.
Michelle
Oh Lotus, I am so sorry. I’ve been through it a couple of times so I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel better. Just know I am thinking about you and so very sorry for your loss. Take care of you.
Michelle’s last blog post..13 is going to be ugly
Amy @ Milk Breath & Margaritas
I’m so sorry Lotus. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.
Amy @ Milk Breath & Margaritas’s last blog post..I’m Hanging Around the Watercooler With BOSSY
Twitter: amy2boys
Hockeyman
I am so sorry to hear your news. Your family is in my prayers and please let us know if you need anything.
Hockeyman’s last blog post..Weekend Acceptances
Busy Mom
Oh, I am so sorry.
I know those words are the same as many other people’s, but please know I mean them and am thinking of you and your family.
Busy Mom’s last blog post..Out of Context Monday
Crystal
So sorry to hear this news. Hold on to those around you and let them love you very much.
Crystal’s last blog post..Part 4 is in draft, I promise
alejna
I’m so sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself.
alejna’s last blog post..decoding real estate listings: a helpful glossary
AMomTwoBoys
Loves, Hugs, Kisses…take your time to grieve. We’ll be here when you’re ready to come back.
Hawt & Bothered
I’m sorry, Lotus. Hugs and love to you.
Hawt & Bothered’s last blog post..Naughty Mama Tip O’ The Day 042008
Veronica Mitchell
I am so sorry. I had a very brief pregnancy in October, and I know that helpless feeling as you watch it bleed away. I hope you find all the comfort you need. You are not alone.
Veronica Mitchell’s last blog post..Works-for-Me Wednesday: Brushing the Kids’ Teeth
Junebug
Oh I’m so sorry. I will be praying for you.
Junebug’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday-Reflections
Colleen
I’m so sorry to hear that, Lotus. I won’t write any colorful attempts to cheer you up – because quite honestly, that sucks. And I won’t tell you about my own experiences…cuz you don’t care right now. But as Veronica says – you are not alone. My prayers are with you. :O)
Colleen’s last blog post..Too tired…
Dana
I am sorry for the loss. Take care.
SherE1
I’m so sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time.
SherE1′s last blog post..Are they freestyling?
Krissy
Oh sweet thing….I’ve been there. It hurts, I know.
I wish that words would ease the pain but for now, just know that the comfort of all your friends are surrounding you with love and prayers.
hugs all around! Wish I leaved in Nashville, to give you a real hug!
BeThisWay
I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family…
Sonia
I am hugging you, I have been there and I know how sad you are right now. Kiss hug kiss to you.
Sonia’s last blog post..In a World, Where Prom is the Biggest Night Ever
Hydes Like Us
Lotus– I wish I was there to make you tea. We all love you. Take as much time as you need.
Hydes
Hydes Like Us’s last blog post..Because I’m the Mom.
Melanie
I only found your blog a couple days ago. I know that nothing I say will help ease your pain and I don’t know you personally but I am truly, truly saddened by your loss. I am so sorry…
Laura
I’m sorry. I’ve been there as well. Just know that you are not alone. I will pray for you and your family.
Laura’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday
Shannie
{{{Giant Hugs}}} to you and your family. I’m so very sorry.
Shannie’s last blog post..Ahhh, The Smell of Clean…
Kristin Jacobs
I am so, so sorry for your loss…you and your family are in my prayers
Angie S.
Lotus I’m so sorry. I have no idea the pain and hurt you are feeling, but please know that you (and John and Braden) are in our prayers and our love.
Madness
Bless your heart and those you love.
Madness’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday
Carissa
I am so very sorry.
Gordo
Oh, Lotus. I’m so sorry. A miscarriage contributed greatly to the span between our boys (6 years). One thing to remember is to not rush back into things again. There’s no schedule to life and no timeline to keep. Take care.
Gordo’s last blog post..Stephen! Go to your room and clean up that mess!
Joe
I am so very sorry to hear this. We went through this when we were expecting our fourth. It was so very difficult. For both of us. All my best to you and your husband.
Daphne (One Mom in Alabama)
SO Sorry to hear this!!! Hugs to you!
Daphne (One Mom in Alabama)’s last blog post..T-Ball Game #5
MP
I am so very sorry my heart aches for you…as you take the time you need know that you have many internet friends sending you well wishes and prayers…
xo
MP’s last blog post..American Idol – Neil Diamond night
The Other Dawn
If I were within a 100 mile radius, I would bring you a shoulder, a vat of ice cream, and my tears to share with you.
I really am so sorry.
The Other Dawn’s last blog post..Willing
Sadie
I’m so sorry for your loss. No words can comfort, but I’m sending you virtual hugs. Hold your family tight, take the time you need. We’ll be here when you get back ready to give you love and laughter again.
Sadie’s last blog post..Random Bits…
Twitter: sadiecass
mamafabulosity
Wow, look at all these comments! So many people love you. I hope that helps a little.
I know what it feels like to lose someone you love so much even though you’ve never officialy met. I still carry that pain with me and I miss Cameron every day, but it does get easier over time.
mamafabulosity’s last blog post..Seven Random Things
Jaynee
I’m so sorry to hear this news. This is the second time in a couple days that a blogger I love reading has announced a miscarriage (Finslippy is the other one). My condolences to you and your family as you grieve for your loss. And my hopes that you will find some comfort in knowing that you are loved.
Jaynee’s last blog post..TV: American Idol Top Five – What Is Paula Smoking?
justmylife
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} I am so sorry! Thoughts and prayers are sent out for you and your family.
justmylife’s last blog post..Just sharing……
jill
oh god hon i am so sorry. i will be thinking good thoughts for you.
jill’s last blog post..Safe landing, upgrades…
Makeshift Mama
I’m so sorry, Lotus. We all love you dearly.
Makeshift Mama’s last blog post..Ahhh!
Rose
I’m new to your blog, but I wanted to tell you that I am so sorry to hear your sad and heartbreaking news!
Having been there myself recently, I know nothing anyone says will make the hurt go away. Just know that you have a lot of people praying for you and your family, my heart goes out to you all.
Hug your little one extra tight and keep your husband near, family helps at this time.
Christy
Thoughts and prayers are with you all. Hug your little one tight!
Christy’s last blog post..On the way to dance class
donna
I’m sorry. I don’t have any other comfort to give but know that I’m thinking of you.
donna’s last blog post..Is This the New Math?
Jess
*hugs* I am so sorry for your loss Lotus. Like many others have said take all the time you need we will be here when you are ready to return. Sending healing vibes and energy your way
Jess’s last blog post..Worldless Wednesday
Susan
Aw…I’m so sorry
.
Christine
I am so sorry for your loss. we went through a similar experience in November. Hold your son as tight as you can, he will help you get through this horrible time.
Christine’s last blog post..Don’t F* with the Pregnant Lady
Kay
I am so so sorry Lotus. I have been down this road 3 times and each experience is mind numbingly different but still such a great loss.
My heart is with you honey.
Kay’s last blog post..Hump Day
Karmyn R
I know it doesn’t help – but I just had 3 in a row and am now due in 4 weeks. Hang in there – hug and cry when you need to and hold that precious kid you’ve got. That will help. Try again when you are ready.
Karmyn R’s last blog post..CONTEST! Guess the Birth Date!! CONTEST!
Sarah
Aww, hon, I’m so sorry for you loss.
You take time to heal and be with your family.
*hugs*
Sarah’s last blog post..Wove, Twue Wove
Twitter: SarahCB1208
Ashleigh
So sorry. You and your swan are loved.
Ashleigh’s last blog post..To thine own self be true…sometimes.
zoeyjane
aw, I’m so sorry lotus. please, let yourself mourn. I’ve been there too many times and I know that this is one swan you don’t want to put away.
Hugs and hot water bottles.
zoeyjane’s last blog post..And it’s Already Starting
Beck
Oh Lotus. I’m so very, very sad for you.
Tonya
Jesus, I’m so sorry. Please ignore the email I just sent you. Bad timing.
My thoughts are with you.
Tonya’s last blog post..12 Blessed Hours
Richard
My wife and I had the same sad experience a few years back. I am so sorry.
Shannymar
Sorry my comment showed up a bunch of times, I kept getting an error!
Tommi
I’m so sorry for your families loss. I hope your healing is fast and complete as it can ever be. May you always remember the precious time you spent with your littlest one.
imaginary binky
I’m so sad for you, lady. Just crying big, floppy tears for you and John. Phil and I know this so well, and you were there for me when this happened to me.
You know where to find me. And Amanda.
imaginary binky’s last blog post..Singing for our supper
Kellyology
I am so sorry for your loss…Hugs to you.
Kellyology’s last blog post..Are You My Mother?
Steph
Reading your post brings back all the emotion from my baby son who didn’t make it. The hurt doesn’t go away, but know that many other women have had this experience and we all sympathize. Nothing can make it better, but know that you aren’t alone.
Steph’s last blog post..Pesca Rant Reason #5
Worthmore
My heart, my mind, and my prayers go out to you and your family.
Kat
I’m so sorry, Lotus.
There is this book – “Let’s have healthy children”, by Adele Davis, which you can order on Amazon. There is nutritional info in there which a friend of mine who miscarried a number of times started to follow and it got her body good and strong to carry a baby, which she was finally able to do. Might help.
xoxo
Jessica
I’m so sorry to hear this has happened to you. I went through this a few months ago. Our thoughts and support are with you and we’ll see you when you’re ready to return.
Jessica’s last blog post..I thought it was a myth
Amy
I don’t know what to say ((Lotus)).
My thoughts are with your lovely family during this difficult time.
Amy’s last blog post..Take a Looksie
Angeline
Oh dear…I have lots to say but I know no words are of comfort now…I’m so sorry…
go cry…go scream…go vent your frustrations and pain….as you fold another swan…*sigh*
Angeline’s last blog post..Importance of Child Seats
wright
I know nothing I can say will make the hurt go away, but just know that I am saying a prayer for you and your family.
wright’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday – Finally
Marylin
So sorry sweetheart
All my love xxx
Marylin’s last blog post..Quiet for a few days…
Carrie
I’m so sorry.
Carrie’s last blog post..Lazy, lazy days
Twitter: koehmstedt
Lisa- Domestic Accident
Lotus, I am really sorry to read this. I’m so so sorry.
Candy
So very very sorry Lotus. You’ll be in my thoughts.
Candy’s last blog post..No, it’s not a skin tag!
Kathryn
I am so very sorry. Hug your boys and keep them close. Prayers for your family.
Kathryn’s last blog post..The Story Of Us
Erin
I am so sorry. I’ll be thinking about you.
Erin’s last blog post..New Camera Pictures
Jenty
Oh Lotus, I’m so so very sorry!
HUGE ((HUGS)) across the seas
I’ve been there a few times, so I know what you’re going through.
Jenty’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday – Wild cosmos
Twitter: jenty
JenniferS^N
So sorry. (((HUGS)))
JenniferS^N’s last blog post..Ze plants, Ze plants…..lol
Tara R
I’m so sorry. I’ve had four miscarriages so I do understand but it doesn’t make it any easier I know. I’ll be praying for you today.
Suzanne
Lotus, I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you, John and Braden.
Suzanne’s last blog post..Mario Kart Wii
Average Jane
I’m so sorry! Take as long as you need – we’ll still be here when you’re ready.
Average Jane’s last blog post..Average Jane Goes Out Walking
Jennifer A
I’m so sorry, I’d give you a big hug if I was nearer to you. and a shoulder to cry on.
Jennifer A’s last blog post..Things are changing around here
Kecia
Sending you healing energy and hoping there is enlightenment and peace in your folding.
Kecia’s last blog post..Latest dance craze
Mommy Cracked
Damn honey. I’m so, so sorry.
Mommy Cracked’s last blog post..Bloggy Giveaway Time
feener
i am sorry for your loss. been there, it is not easy, but you can take comfort in your son.
feener’s last blog post..Gym or Mcdonalds
Lottifish
I’m so sorry. We’ll be here for you when you feel like talking.
Lottifish’s last blog post..When You Want To Leave
alala
Oh, no. Oh I am so, so sorry.
alala’s last blog post..What good does a Duce do?
Tanya
I feel for you. In my heart.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Trysha
I am so sorry. Hugs to you and yours.
lee
I am so sorry. absolute huge hugs!!
PandoraWilde
I am SO sorry. Will pray and light candles for you and yours.
~Leaving a great big hug for you all~
PandoraWilde’s last blog post..RbW: The Tallahassee Edition
Tasina
Oh Lotus – I don’t have any words…I am so damn sorry. Take all the time you need – we will all be out here sending you the best love and wishes until you are ready to come back.
{{{great big hug}}}
Tasina’s last blog post..GraphJam
VHMPrincess
I am so sorry – I know the pain and I am sorry you two have to go thru this.
VHMPrincess’s last blog post..well well well…
Lulu
I am so sorry for your loss…Hugs to you, your husband and darling boy!
Lulu’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday #5…
Sunshine Mom
So sorry. You and your family are in my prayers. Hugs!
Sunshine Mom’s last blog post..Out of the Mouth of Babes
Becky
I’m so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Barb
You are a wonderful mother to Braden and I know you had so much love already for the next baby. I’m so sorry for your loss. I pray that you will find peace at this horribly difficult time.
Barb’s last blog post..13 jobs is a lot, huh?
Jenski
That just plain stinks.
May Braden help you both to cut little square pieces of paper to make your swans and heal.
Jenski’s last blog post..So cute it makes my uterus hurt
Mrs. F
This saddens us all who were excited for you.
:::Big bear hugs:::
Mrs. F’s last blog post..How I Met My Honey
Jessica
I am so sorry for your loss. I am frequent visitor and infrequent commenter. Just wanted you to know that I am praying for you and your family.
Jessica’s last blog post..When hippie goes wrong
anne
I am so, so sorry. I’ve been through this twice, and I remember that profound ache in my heart so vividly. My heart goes out to you, and I pray for comfort and peace to come swiftly to you.
Many, many hugs, my friend.
anne’s last blog post..belly monday: 23 weeks, wednesday edition
Karleigh
I have no idea how you must be feeling right now as I have never been in this situation. I wish I could be there right now to hold you, but I cannot. I know this is a difficult, and I say this to you because I know you and I’m sure you already know this, but God has a plan. I pray that your sadness passes and that God will grant you understanding and comfort. I understand if you will not be ready for visitors and would like me to refrain from coming. I’m here for you, Lowty.
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Allison (aka AngelGal)
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss.
You have lots of healing to do—come back to blogging when you are good and ready!
God holds you and yours right now!
Much love and hugs!
Allison (aka AngelGal)’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday #3 – First in 5 Years!
daysgoby
Oh, Sugar. I’m so, so sorry.
daysgoby’s last blog post..crescendo
tommie
I am so sorry…..hug that sweet little boy and yo’ baby’s daddy. That is all that is right in this world now while you are in the midst of your swan.
tommie’s last blog post..Thursday 13…..#38….the letter R
Schuyler
sorry for your loss Lotus. i can’t imagine how to handle something like that. i know you can make it through, you are a very strong woman.
Stephaine
Hugs and prayers for you all!
I am so sorry…..
Tootsie Farklepants
Oh, I’m so sorry. I’ve been there. It’s a terrible place to be. ~xoxo
Tootsie Farklepants’s last blog post..Aside from Home it’s Where I Spend the Most Time
Christie
I am so, so sorry to hear this news.
Christie’s last blog post..hometown love
Lightening
Oh honey. I am SO SO sorry to read these words.
Thinking of you.
Lightening’s last blog post..RSS Awareness Day
cyndy
I am so very sorry for you.
xoxo
cyndy’s last blog post..Mantras – Update
gareth
we desperatly feel for you, jayne and i had 3 misscarriages before darcy, and bled through darcy’s pregnancy, she is our miracle, our thoughts are with you and the family at this time,
all the best !
Shannon
I can’t ecen imagine your pain. Our prayers are with you.
Shannon’s last blog post..Wordy Wednesday-SIXTEEN!
HipMarye
Oh Lottus, I am so very sorry for y’all’s loss. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
HipMarye’s last blog post..Oh Dam
Greta
Oh Hon,
I’ve been there too. 3 times. Crap. Just {hugs}
Greta’s last blog post..Determining the Sex of Your Baby
Jenny from Mommin' It Up!
Lotus, you and your boys are in my prayers. I can’t imagine the pain – my heart aches for you.
Jenny from Mommin’ It Up!’s last blog post..Bob the Builder Needs to GET A ROOM
Twitter: jennyitup
Secret Agent Mama
Oh sweet friend, I am sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you and praying for you all. ((HUGS))
Secret Agent Mama’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday
mountainmama
Ahhh, love…so sorry! Having been down this road far too many times, my heart goes out to you. Hold your little precious one, and wrap your man around you, and be well, as we all send you love. xx
mountainmama’s last blog post..Weekly Winners, Sunday Meme
autumn dahlia
Oh Lotus… I don’t know what to say.
Thinking of you…..
autumn dahlia’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday
Adena
So sorry to hear this, Lotus. Take a break, and feel better. Will be here when you are ready.
Adena’s last blog post..Next thing to fear: Cans
camdunson
I’m so sorry.
You’re in my thoughts and prayers this week.
camdunson’s last blog post..Once Upon a Time – Like Last Month
Amy
What sad news, I am so sorry. Big hugs to you all!
Amy’s last blog post..“How I met my honey!”
mah-meee
i’m so sorry….
i’ll be thinking of you …
*hugs*
mah-meee’s last blog post..Wordless Wednesday – Dancing Queen
jen zug
I’m so sorry for your loss. Take all the time away from blogging that you need – now is not the time to entertain us.
jen zug’s last blog post..On being sick for a whole month…
dana
Oh, dear. I’m so terribly sorry to hear this tragic news. I’m sending hugs your way. There are no words to that can take away this pain. I’ve been there. I remember that the grief had to come and go on it’s own time.
dana’s last blog post..Let’s Catch Up, Shall We?
Robyn
((((HUGS))))) I am so sorry that had to happen. I hope you get all the hugs from family and friends you need….
Kelly
I am so very sorry to hear this. Take care of yourself and I hope you are able to find some peace.
Kelly’s last blog post..Love Thursday: Where are They Now?
rachel
Oh Lotus.
My heart and my prayers to you and yours.
Much love and bunches of hugs.
rachel’s last blog post..God Saw
tanya25m
I’m so very sorry.
tanya25m’s last blog post..My Daughter Made The Front Page Of The Local Newspaper…
Maureen
OH, I am so sorry. I too have been down this road. It won’t make you feel any better, only time will do that, but know that it happens far too often…
Take care.
Maureen’s last blog post..The Elderly Parade
Bri
I’ve been there. I’m so sorry.
((hugs))
Bri’s last blog post..My Very Own Episode of 24
In the Trenches of Mommyhood
So so sorry.
It sucks.
In the Trenches of Mommyhood’s last blog post..I Wanna Be a Cowboy…
Karla
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.
Karla’s last blog post..Uphill both ways
Alison
I am so sorry. I hope you find comfort in the arms of your family.
Laura
I’m so sorry…
Laura’s last blog post..Thursday Thirteen #17
HappyCampers
My dear Lotus….praying that God wraps you and your family in his arms and gives you all the strength you need at this time. I am so very sorry….
HappyCampers’s last blog post..Friday Fill-In
Don Mills Diva
I am so so sorry for your loss Lotus.
I’ll be thinking of you…
Don Mills Diva’s last blog post..Satisfying beauty
loveyh
One of the few times I’ve had to say how much I feel your pain. Been there, done that–we’re here for you if you need to write to your Swan.
loveyh’s last blog post..SAHM vs Working Moms: Why The Hate?
Becky
Oh hun…I’m so sad for you guys.
Becky’s last blog post..Where do these people COME from?!
MamaGeek
I am so sincerely sorry. I know that pain and my heart aches for you. Please know thoughts are swirling all around you.
MamaGeek’s last blog post..Raindrop Reflections
~JJ!
Oh love. I’m so very sorry.
~JJ!’s last blog post..Beautiful Mourning
tatiana
i can’t even imagine how you must feel but i still wanted to throw my hugs into the ring.
tatiana’s last blog post..NOTE TO COUNTERS: THIS COUNT AS ONE TOWARDS THE MAKEUPS
Robinella
So sorry darling! Been down that road before myself. Get your tight hugs in!
Robinella’s last blog post..Jay Robb’s Fat Burning Diet
Frances
You are in my thoughts. So sorry for your loss.
Frances’s last blog post..This is what I do instead of studying.
ImpostorMom
So sorry for your loss, hugs…
ImpostorMom’s last blog post..They once were my babies
Jessica
I’m so sorry for your loss!
tiff
I am so sad for you, my friend.
I will be thinking of you and your sweet family
Bethany
I am so sorry. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Bethany’s last blog post..As If The Post Partum Depression Wasn’t Bad Enough…
Fern
I’m so sorry. Sooo so so sorry. I hate it that this happened to you. I’ll be praying for you.
Fern’s last blog post..one heck of an april fool’s prank
blogversary
Sorry for the loss. I will say a prayer.
blogversary’s last blog post..thoughts on the uninsured
Claire in CA, USA
I’m am so very sorry, Lotus. Praying for you.
Claire in CA, USA’s last blog post..A very interesting announcement
Eve
Lotus – I’m sitting here crying for your loss and my own memories. I think miscarriage is the most unfair thing that can happen to a family. I hope your heart heals soon. ((HUGS))
Eve’s last blog post..Looking at the Snake
Lyrics of My Life
Lyrics of My Life’s last blog post..Gute Nacht!
frogpondsrock
Oh Sweetheart.. love and hugs to you both..xxxx
frogpondsrock’s last blog post..Mystery Object?????
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irunwithscissors
Oh honey, I am soo sorry! Take all the time you need to heal! **HUGS**
irunwithscissors’s last blog post..Give it a rest already….
Kim
Lotus.. I am so sorry. I can’t begine to imagine the pain. Sending hugs to you and John.
Kim’s last blog post..What Moms think about good Dads
A Lil' Irish Lass
Oh Lotus. I’m so very, very sorry.
A Lil’ Irish Lass’s last blog post..Three Strikes – You’re Out!
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Widdle Shamrock
I didn’t have to look into your eyes to fall in love with you,
I didn’t have to hear you cry to know you loved me too,
I didn’t need to hold your hand to cherish you for always,
Within my womb , we shared our hearts,
You touched my soul,
You sweetened my spirit,
You gave me memories I”ll always hold dear,
Yes, my heart aches since you departed too soon.
But a mothers love does not end with death,
For you are my child,
Forever my love is yours
Author unknown.
May God’s light and love surround you even more right now.
Widdle Shamrock’s last blog post..My Precious Widdle Squishy
Jennifer
Damn, Lotus. I’m so sorry. Sorry I’m late in commenting, not that you were hitting refresh over and over waiting, or anything.
Damn.
So sorry.
Jennifer’s last blog post..These Items Won’t Be on This Week’s Grocery List
Karen (miscmum)
I’m very very sorry to hear that
Karen (miscmum)’s last blog post..Alighting upon my seat for a brief moment
Myst
I’m so very sorry for you and your sad news,
take care,
G
xx
Myst’s last blog post..Gratification
BusyDad
Lotus, I am so sorry. Just know you and your family are in MANY peoples’ thoughts, including mine of course.
BusyDad’s last blog post..Reason #34 Why You Don’t Want to Meet Me in Person
VDog
I am so, so sorry sweetheart. Please accept my apologies for being such a tool and missing this.
I know this really really sucks, and I am so sorry for your loss.
Hug Braden real tight, k?
*hugs*
VDog’s last blog post..Little Man Goes to Daddy’s Office
Twitter: VDog
Carolyn Bahm
I’m so sorry.
Carolyn Bahm’s last blog post..47×365, #13 – Karen R.
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the ff
oh lotus. . . i am so sorry
Deb (Missives From Suburbia)
Oh, hon, I’m so sorry. I’ve been so behind on blog reading that I had no idea. ((HUGS))
Deb (Missives From Suburbia)’s last blog post..The Weight of Air
Amelie
I’m so very sorry.
Amelie’s last blog post..Sunday afternoon, coffee shop
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