Braden,
It’s been a year since you’ve been outside of my womb, but you’ve been in my heart for 87 weeks. We found out about you on February 14, 2006. It was the best Valentine I’ve ever received.
It’s been a year since I held you in my arms for the first time and couldn’t believe I was touching you with my hands, for real. You were so tiny and perfect on that very first day.
A whole year has gone by since God trusted us enough to give to us a life to mold, a heart to hold, and a responsibility weightier than another other, to fulfill.
This past year, Braden, I have become a better, kinder, more thoughtful, happier, more centered, more careful, grounded person. I see everything differently. I appreciate everything more. Because of YOU. FOR you. As a friend of Daddy’s said, having a child makes you “see things rightly.”
You have accomplished so much this past year, Braden. I knew you would, but seeing it all happen before my very own eyes has been an experience like no other. Seeing you become has been a testament to God’s Creation for my soul.
During this year of your life on earth, my son, you have cheated (sickness can’t stop you), stolen (Momma and Dada’s hearts) and lied (your face isn’t the cutest possible… because it always gets more adorable tomorrow).
This year you have made your Momma so happy, so alive. You have topped every other accomplishment, event, situation, or experience I’ve had. There is nothing else in my past that I can compare to the glory that is being your mother.
It’s been the best year of my life, Braden.
Before you even existed as a tiny Wiggle Bean in the womb, I yearned for your life to spring up inside of me, and once I found out you were there, I was so anxious to meet you that I could have just burst. I had so many expectations and curiosities about you. You blew them all away, and the moment I saw you with my eyes the first time, I knew that I would give my life for you, without question, in an instant.
That will never change.
I love you, Braden. Happy First Birthday, my son.
Momma, Mommy, “Ehmmahhmmm”
#1 by Anonymous on October 16, 2007 - 2:16 PM
This is what it’s all about. If others who don’t appreciate the blessing of motherhood would just READ beautiful Mommy love letters such as yours, there would be no child abuse, no negligence, and no resentment.
Having a child to care for is such an amazing blessing and responsibility that uplifts us even during trying times. Just imagine the effort that was put into creating the perfect baby just for you and John. Such a tiny package when they arrive, but by far the biggest gift you can ever receive.
Thanks for sharing this, Lotus. You three are just wonderful. Love you!
(Amanda, but it won’t sign me in).
#2 by Karleigh on October 16, 2007 - 2:39 PM
OMG, you’re making me cry. I love you, Braden and Lotus and John!
#3 by Veronica on October 16, 2007 - 3:18 PM
This is just gorgeous!
Happy Birthday Braden!!!
(I feel a bit odd, first I was a day early, now I am a day late. Damn time zones)
I hope the three of you have the most wonderful day possible!
#4 by dawn on October 16, 2007 - 4:08 PM
Who would have thought eh?
#5 by imaginary sarah on October 16, 2007 - 6:23 PM
Lovely stuff, lady. My heart is full of love for the Carrolls and that boy of yours!
Scream and squeal on your birfy, lil’ feller!