• Seeing this first thing caught me off guard this morning. I’ve been trying to walk a fine line between sharing in hopes of removing the stigma, and withholding because I don’t want to broadcast. But even with the meds and professional help, it still lies.

    Believe it or not, there was a time when I was respected and in a position of influence. I remember how lonely it was. It seems like you have a life rich with friends, and it’s easy to assume you’ve found many friends to reach out to. But I’ve learned that it is dangerous to assume with something like this. So I extend the same offer to you. If you ever need help to be reminded of the truth, I’m willing to remind you.

    I love you, Lotus! Thank you for helping me to remember that no matter how much that darkness seems to make sense, it’s still a lie. ?

    May 02, 2016
    • Jake, I love you to bits; you are such a kind and sensitive soul!
      You have been a light in my life already, and continue to be so. Thank you for checking in on me years ago when I felt the need to “check out” for awhile. You noticed that I was “gone” and that meant so much to me.

      May 02, 2016
  • Beautiful thoughts, Lotus. And right on. There are often times when i need this and now i have it to refer to, which i will. Thanks.

    May 02, 2016
    • <3 I have read your words and been moved many times. Thank you for that.

      May 02, 2016
  • A wonderful post that rings true to my own experience and struggles. I love your heartfelt, sincere, loving, and insightful outlook. I feel proud and privileged to know you, Lotus. Thanks for this, and all you do.

    May 02, 2016
  • ((hugs))

    Yes, depression is a dirty liar. And it hurts at all levels: physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual.

    And yet, without darkness, we can’t completely appreciate the light.

    When I was in the hospital after a heart attack in 2014, having cardiac bypass surgery, all the darkness and depression came crashing down on me, and I sank into deep despair. Still, at some point, I decided that I could stay like I was and be miserable, or try to have a good attitude and hope that life would respond to that.

    I did try, and life did respond. I didn’t go all the way back to the way I was, though: I came out of all of that more vulnerable than ever. On the other hand, death now has no sting for me.

    Much love.

    May 03, 2016
  • I would completely reach out to you if I needed. And I have. But the thing I love best is that you aren’t saying this to say it, you are so completely serious. ANYONE, ANYWHERE can reach out to you. Not just ladies who have stayed up all night confessing every dark secret over wine. :-)

    Love you to bits, lady. I love that you’re transparent, kind, and completely vulnerable and available to anyone and everyone who needs a shoulder. I hope, and know, you have one (here!), when your time comes.

    May 04, 2016
  • Tony Utter

    This is a battle I still fight. I just wish it would end. I wish it would be over. I wish it would leave me alone.

    But it doesn’t work that way. I wish it did.

    Even now, I sit here in darkness, the light from my laptop the only thing that is lighting this room. I feel like I am fighting a battle I can’t win.

    I feel like there is nothing else I can do.

    May 07, 2016
  • Sam

    Despite the liar in the room, I find clear truth in your words: so many of us do keep ourselves from being dragged under by stoically clutching and clinging to the more socially acceptable version of ourselves. Brave faces are exactly that: Brave.

    May 15, 2016
  • Low

    I got here following a long trail that started on G+ and I was touched by your words on depression. I believe that you’re right and that you must be a good person because you’re helping others. So, thank you!

    June 01, 2016

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