If you see it, send it home to me.

Writer’s block – it sucks.
I avoid my computer,
distracted by life.

I just want to laugh
and play with my son all day,
take pictures, and live.

But even when I
sit here to talk to you I
can’t turn it back on.

The screen is too bright,
the keys are too hard; I just
want to walk away.

I’m missing something.
A light-hearted happiness
once possessed is gone.

Most days are now filled
with more laughter than sorrow.
But still, I’m searching.

I can’t find my Muse.
Always there before, but it
is taking a break.

I think it’s hiding
from the sudden crying spells
that keep creeping in.

I’m sure it will come
home again in time. until
then, I will struggle.

Even now I think,
“This is crap. I should not post.”
But it’s late. I’m tired.





39 comments


  • Mackenzie's Momma

    I totally get where you are at lotus. My muse has taken a break, and I can’t seem to find it. I just want to be outside soaking up the sun, or writing non-bloggy things.

    May 9, 2008
  • Everyone needs a break now and then. And it’s certainly no crime to want to spend as much time as you can enjoying the real life that goes on outside the monitor. Go have fun! Your readers will be here when you get back.

    lilacspecs’s last blog post..The Lilac Colored Glasses Very Merry Unblogiversary

    May 9, 2008
  • I swear that there is a virus infecting the internets. Bloggers are going down all over the place. Blogging block has infected us all.

    And it sucks.

    But I am truly in awe that someone who professes writers block can do a HUGE Haiku!

    Awesomeness…

    Kelley’s last blog post..I am a woman of my word, Iceel you bastard.

    May 9, 2008
  • I agree. Soak up the sun and some love. It heals the soul.
    Happy Mother’s Day to you! And smiles. Lots of smiles. :)

    May 9, 2008
  • i’ve felt it, too. it tends to come and go. i try not to think about it, because i only seems to make it worse. so for now, enjoy the sunshine and your boy!!

    transplanting me’s last blog post..haiku p.s.a.

    May 9, 2008
  • fred

    Haiku’s have always just been just one step up from Acrostic poems for me, and up until today my personal all time Haiku favorite was probably your “My butt as a waterfall”. But I must say this Haiku is beautiful.

    May 9, 2008
  • I feel it, too. For crying out loud my haiku friday last week was so terrible, I’ve thought about deleting it.

    I hope you get your writing mojo back ASAP.

    Jennifer’s last blog post..For Ella

    May 9, 2008
  • ahhhh, I live this I think for my dayjob.

    I get so brainfoggy from mamaing that I cant create.

    M.

    MizFit’s last blog post..Link Love and a Friday FREEBIE!

    May 9, 2008
  • Maybe it ran off with mine? Fickle muses.

    witchypoo’s last blog post..Grammie on my Mind

    May 9, 2008
  • I heard you… So love your title! It hit a spot…

    Happy Friday!

    Mariposa’s last blog post..Poetry For My Crappiness!

    May 9, 2008
  • Don’t worry, it is out drinking and dancing with mine.

    Damn things.

    Veronica’s last blog post..Mouse Skin Blankets

    May 9, 2008
  • It’s understandable especially w/what you’ve been thru recently. Hugs to you, it’ll get better :)

    Connie’s last blog post..I’m still here…

    May 9, 2008
  • thinking of ya hun..

    yours mine and veronica’s must be having a drink together..

    Taz’s last blog post..A very proud Mummy!!!!

    May 9, 2008
  • I’d like to see anyone who hasn’t been blogging for a while that hasn’t hit blogger’s block to stand up and raise their hand.

    I’ve been blogging for a better part of my adulthood. I learned that if you do it for yourself and not for the ad revenue or comments audience it is a lot easier.

    My regular 8 readers now are just happy to hear from me almost daily … even if they are almost all family.

    Bonnie’s last blog post..I take my lunch hour at the end of the day

    May 9, 2008
  • I think your Muse and my Muse must be off in a Motel 6 somewhere, making out. Because after that lousy 100 Word challenge I posted last night …. Oh well, I’m sure they’re going to get tired of each other and find their way home shortly. I hope so, because that f***er owes me. Big time.

    Lou Lohman’s last blog post..100 Word challenge – Eden
    Twitter:

    May 9, 2008
  • Maybe if you stop looking for it, it will get bored and come out of hiding :) (That’s how I always won hide-n-seek as a kid, haha!)

    May 9, 2008
  • Yep, it happens. I agree with those who say not to dwell on it too much but to go out and enjoy. That’s when it’s bound to come back to you :)

    Maggie’s Mind’s last blog post..Hai-(nice to meet you)-ku Friday 5/9/08

    May 9, 2008
  • Oh I know the writers block soo well!

    Hope it comes back to ya soon :) ((hugs))

    Marylin’s last blog post..Hai, kud I get some hair please?

    May 9, 2008
  • Maybe my muse is hanging out with yours? Ha. I’ve been just posing 1-3 times a week and not always real creative stfuff. A great book is Anne Lamott’s “Bird by Bird.” She’s funny, no-nonsense and even if she doesn’t make your muse come back she’ll make you feel normal for havinig lost her to begin with! :-)

    Anne’s last blog post..Haiku Friday: My Family Vice

    May 9, 2008
  • *sighs* I cant think of anything to say I am still thinking about Braden yelling back at the annoying brat.. lol

    Braden rocks..

    frogpondsrock’s last blog post..Mystery Object Revealed… Tadaaa!!!!

    May 9, 2008
  • Totally not crap.
    I wrote that first as totally not carp. IT’s not carp either!

    ALISON’s last blog post..Apparently I Can Be Random in the Middle of the Week, too

    May 9, 2008
  • Continuing to send your prayers & hugs :)

    HappyCampers’s last blog post..CoOp: It’s Outta This World!

    May 9, 2008
  • You just lost a part of you. Is it any wonder that your Muse is mourning too?

    You are in my prayers. Have a restful and peaceful weekend.

    Jenni’s last blog post..By The Numbers

    May 9, 2008
  • Your muse is there, she’s just pointing you more toward the roses and the smells thereof. Nothing wrong with that!

    Memarie Lane’s last blog post..The Great Nothing

    May 9, 2008
  • it takes time my dear and that is ok. Enjoy your son and spring and one day you’ll feel like showing us all another fabulous photo of your sons tushie :)

    Tara R’s last blog post..The difference one year can make

    May 9, 2008
  • You’re still healing. It’s understandable and no one is expecting giddy happiness or ultimate brilliance, although you are succeeding (Even though you’ don’t feel like it).

    What we’re expecting is for you to take the time you need. Just letting us know on occassion that you are still functioning and healing. That’s all.

    *huges*

    Sadie’s last blog post..Hai Ku – Lessons learned
    Twitter:

    May 9, 2008
  • I think it happens to us all,Lotus. Take a break, and just be.

    Love Love!

    Secret Agent Mama’s last blog post..Project 365 (256, 257 & 258/365)

    May 9, 2008
  • With all you’ve been through, you probably feel so drained. We all experience times where we’d rather listen and read than talk and write. *hugs*

    Karen of Sillymonkeez’s last blog post..Alphabet Photos (Letter I)

    May 9, 2008
  • I think your crap is better than the stuff that I think about..

    MP’s last blog post..Bloggers Guild, Resturants, Injuries

    May 9, 2008
  • Hang in there, love.
    I’m still happy to read you & see what’s happening in the world of Lotus, even if it is crap. Which is isn’t.

    May 9, 2008
  • when in doubt, chew on (or take pictures of) baby toes.

    that would always do it for me….

    the planet of janet’s last blog post..Haiku Friday: It’s a baby shower! edition
    Twitter:

    May 9, 2008
  • [...] burnout and writer’s block seem to be in the air. I haven’t had much in me lately, either, so I will leave you this [...]

    May 9, 2008
  • It takes time before those days come back but they will be back. Promise.
    HUGS

    Kay (Special K)’s last blog post..Where I come from it’s cornbread and chicken

    May 9, 2008
  • “I’m sure it will come
    home again in time.”

    It will . . . give yourself time.

    Take care of YOU . . .

    Laskigal’s last blog post..100 Posts . . . oh, boy.

    May 9, 2008
  • TAke the time darling. We’ll all be here when you are inspired or want to touch base.
    Live and love, laugh with B, hold, taste, touch, see, smell and experience. Sometimes you have to just get out and be.

    rachel’s last blog post..Blankity Blank Blank

    May 9, 2008
  • We’ve all had those days, Lotus.

    Anglophile Football Fanatic’s last blog post..HF: A Wedding

    May 9, 2008
  • Writer block sucks, but this is definately not crap!

    Shannymar’s last blog post..Self Portrait Saturday #3-My virtual model is fat.

    May 10, 2008
  • All I post is crap. So… I still think what you have to say is worth reading. Even if it isn’t living up to your standards. :)

    Karen’s last blog post..My Day

    May 10, 2008
  • I understand. It’s all ebb and flow, and lately it’s been more ebb than flow.

    When you get in the zone, make a list of all your blog ideas. Then when you have a rough patch, you can pull from that list for inspiration.

    Now if I’d just follow my own advice…

    Christina’s last blog post..Haiku Friday: A Feminine Topic

    May 10, 2008

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