in your absence

absence1

here one minute
gone the next

did i take for granted
the time we had

there’s an empty spot
on this couch with me

the curve on my side
where your hand likes to be

a record skips in my head
instead of your laughter

there is music far away
it falls from your fingers

still i hear nothing
but the beating of my heart

the only way to stop
the ache in my chest

is to close my eyes
under the stars

and wait for the melody to fade

18 comments


  • (((hugs)) and peace to you.
    .-= Veronica´s last blog ..Isaac’s E.C.G. =-.

    August 26, 2009
  • so sweet and heart-squishing; great picture too.

    hope he’s back again soon.
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    August 26, 2009
  • (((HUGS))) I don’t know how you do it
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    August 26, 2009
  • John Carroll

    This post made my day, as I read it early this morning. I can’t wait to fill the empty spot on the couch next to you. My hands long for that place they want to be. I love you, Lotus!
    Soon!
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    August 26, 2009
  • Oh I want to hug you! (And that would totally be the same as J being there – right?!)

    This was excellent.
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    August 26, 2009
  • What a beautiful poem! Thank you for sharing! It pulls at my heart this morning!
    .-= Courtney´s last blog ..WW – A Day At Summerfest ’09 =-.

    August 26, 2009
  • Pretty piece, Lotus. It’s nice to feel that way about someone, isn’t it? And yet it is an agony, as well. No less agonizing for it’s sweetness, it is a pain so many endure. I wish him home, for you.
    .-= lceel´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday – Example =-.
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    August 26, 2009
  • As your other marriage partner, I can totes come sit on the couch and paint your toes just like J does.

    I wish you lived closer. I know it’s hard to be alone. I love you, hun!
    .-= Mrs. Flinger´s last blog ..I met a new man at work AKA: Affairs of the heart =-.

    August 26, 2009
  • Oh…that was beautiful.

    My husband used to travel for work all the time. I was surrounded by family, but I still hated being without him.

    ((hugs))
    .-= Ashlie- Mommycosm´s last blog ..How to create a shorter url for use on Twitter and IM =-.

    August 26, 2009
  • Allie

    I know it sucks to be alone. Let me rephrase that, alone without an adult who can form complete sentences. Wrecks your nerves.
    A new season is coming soon. That’s a good thing.

    August 26, 2009
  • lovely words…hope the spot on the couch next to you is filled soon.
    .-= LifeAsIKnowIt´s last blog ..Working On A Dream =-.

    August 26, 2009
  • Beautiful, just beautiful, Lotus. It made me think “That’s how my wife must feel when I’m away all the time”…

    And then I saw John’s reply and I thought “I wish I could be smart enough to say things like that to Gaby”… You guys love each other very much, and it shows.

    The best part of John being away has to be the countdown till when he’s back.
    .-= Gabriel´s last blog ..Oshawa wanted the best, now they finally got the best =-.

    August 26, 2009
  • So damn sweet.
    I love y’all and John’s comment just makes this.
    SO sweet xoxox
    .-= rachel-asouthernfairytale´s last blog ..3 Years. 3 Pictures. 1 Girl. =-.

    August 26, 2009
  • I know this pain. :(
    .-= Secret Agent Mama´s last blog ..Right On, AJWright =-.

    August 27, 2009
  • (((hugs)))
    I don’t know you well enough to just offer hugs like that, but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. And life is short like that, eh?
    .-= WackyMummy´s last blog ..A Very Long Story About A Very Small Incident =-.

    August 28, 2009
  • As someone else in love with/loved by a touring musician, I feel like I could have written this. Only not nearly as beautifully. It’s hard. Sometimes I’m glad for the independence but most days are just countdowns. He’s home for now but spring was a 12-week tour and fall brings 6 weeks out. You do provide a lot of hope that marriage and families have a place in that world though and I can’t really thank you enough for that.
    .-= ToKissTheCook´s last blog ..Turn Around Bright Eyes (Drag Queen Karaoke in P-town) =-.

    August 28, 2009
  • *hugs*

    Beautiful written…captured the emotion perfectly.
    .-= Sarah´s last blog ..Real Men Don’t Cry (Part 3) =-.
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    August 28, 2009
  • What a beautiful, heart-felt poem! I’m sorry you’re feeling lonely & missing your man but you’ll be reunited soon.

    *I ♥ John’s comment~SOOOO sweet~the ♥ you guys share is SO obvious!
    .-= Connie´s last blog ..Playing catch up~Our anniversary on 1/31/09 =-.

    August 29, 2009

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