in your absence
- At August 26, 2009
- By Lotus Carroll
- In Husband, Mental/Emotional, Poetry, Relationships
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here one minute
gone the next
did i take for granted
the time we had
there’s an empty spot
on this couch with me
the curve on my side
where your hand likes to be
a record skips in my head
instead of your laughter
there is music far away
it falls from your fingers
still i hear nothing
but the beating of my heart
the only way to stop
the ache in my chest
is to close my eyes
under the stars
and wait for the melody to fade


Veronica
(((hugs)) and peace to you.
.-= Veronica´s last blog ..Isaac’s E.C.G. =-.
pgoodness
so sweet and heart-squishing; great picture too.
hope he’s back again soon.
Twitter: Pgoodness
Jeanette
(((HUGS))) I don’t know how you do it
Twitter: jenty
John Carroll
This post made my day, as I read it early this morning. I can’t wait to fill the empty spot on the couch next to you. My hands long for that place they want to be. I love you, Lotus!
Soon!
Twitter: thejohncarrollgmail.com
amy2boys
Oh I want to hug you! (And that would totally be the same as J being there – right?!)
This was excellent.
.-= amy2boys´s last blog ..Shark Bites – Back to School Edition =-.
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Courtney
What a beautiful poem! Thank you for sharing! It pulls at my heart this morning!
.-= Courtney´s last blog ..WW – A Day At Summerfest ’09 =-.
lceel
Pretty piece, Lotus. It’s nice to feel that way about someone, isn’t it? And yet it is an agony, as well. No less agonizing for it’s sweetness, it is a pain so many endure. I wish him home, for you.
.-= lceel´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday – Example =-.
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Mrs. Flinger
As your other marriage partner, I can totes come sit on the couch and paint your toes just like J does.
I wish you lived closer. I know it’s hard to be alone. I love you, hun!
.-= Mrs. Flinger´s last blog ..I met a new man at work AKA: Affairs of the heart =-.
Ashlie- Mommycosm
Oh…that was beautiful.
My husband used to travel for work all the time. I was surrounded by family, but I still hated being without him.
((hugs))
.-= Ashlie- Mommycosm´s last blog ..How to create a shorter url for use on Twitter and IM =-.
Allie
I know it sucks to be alone. Let me rephrase that, alone without an adult who can form complete sentences. Wrecks your nerves.
A new season is coming soon. That’s a good thing.
LifeAsIKnowIt
lovely words…hope the spot on the couch next to you is filled soon.
.-= LifeAsIKnowIt´s last blog ..Working On A Dream =-.
Gabriel
Beautiful, just beautiful, Lotus. It made me think “That’s how my wife must feel when I’m away all the time”…
And then I saw John’s reply and I thought “I wish I could be smart enough to say things like that to Gaby”… You guys love each other very much, and it shows.
The best part of John being away has to be the countdown till when he’s back.
.-= Gabriel´s last blog ..Oshawa wanted the best, now they finally got the best =-.
rachel-asouthernfairytale
So damn sweet.
I love y’all and John’s comment just makes this.
SO sweet xoxox
.-= rachel-asouthernfairytale´s last blog ..3 Years. 3 Pictures. 1 Girl. =-.
Secret Agent Mama
I know this pain.
.-= Secret Agent Mama´s last blog ..Right On, AJWright =-.
WackyMummy
(((hugs)))
I don’t know you well enough to just offer hugs like that, but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. And life is short like that, eh?
.-= WackyMummy´s last blog ..A Very Long Story About A Very Small Incident =-.
ToKissTheCook
As someone else in love with/loved by a touring musician, I feel like I could have written this. Only not nearly as beautifully. It’s hard. Sometimes I’m glad for the independence but most days are just countdowns. He’s home for now but spring was a 12-week tour and fall brings 6 weeks out. You do provide a lot of hope that marriage and families have a place in that world though and I can’t really thank you enough for that.
.-= ToKissTheCook´s last blog ..Turn Around Bright Eyes (Drag Queen Karaoke in P-town) =-.
Sarah
*hugs*
Beautiful written…captured the emotion perfectly.
.-= Sarah´s last blog ..Real Men Don’t Cry (Part 3) =-.
Twitter: sadiecass
Connie
What a beautiful, heart-felt poem! I’m sorry you’re feeling lonely & missing your man but you’ll be reunited soon.
*I ♥ John’s comment~SOOOO sweet~the ♥ you guys share is SO obvious!
.-= Connie´s last blog ..Playing catch up~Our anniversary on 1/31/09 =-.