Lotus Update, AKA Whining
It has been a rough week for me, guys. I’ve been sick since early Thursday morning, and I am STILL not well. It was food poisening, of my own stupid design. I was working with raw chicken on Wednesday night, and I think I probably got some contamination sickness. I’m usually very careful, so this just sucked big time. In the past 3 days, I have consumed 1.5 bananas, half a piece of peanut butter bread, a bit of milk, a few bites of salad, a few wedge fries, and lots of gatorade. If I’m not a svelt 135 lbs by Christmas, I’m complaining to SOMEONE. Heh.
Had a gyno appointment on Friday, which wasn’t horrible, but it’s not the favorite activity of my life. Finally also had some blood work done to check up on my thyroid. I have a confession to make, and that is that I have some rather poopy health issues that I have not been sharing with the blogosphere very much. I was diagnosed with Goiter and Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis in 2005 and underwent all kinds of nutball tests. When you go into a place specializing in “Nuclear Medicine,” and a guy hands you a vial with an odd looking pill in it, telling you to swallow it… and then almost spazzes when you begin to slide it into your hand, spitting, “No NO! Don’t touch it! Just drop it into your mouth!” You get kind of scared as to what the hell that thing is going to do inside you.
So, yeah, that was followed by what seemed like endless nuclear scans that day. I also had ultrasounds of the thyroid and repeatedly had to have blood drawn. The highly educated and lauded Endocrinologist concluded that I had HT, and that it wasn’t messing up my hormones ENOUGH to put me on medication yet. So, so sorry, nothing we can do for you right now. Come back when you’re REALLY messed up and miserable. Then they wanted me to schedule (and pay for) another ultrasound, and that’s when I said F This.
I had my levels checked again while I was pregnant, and they were still near the same place. I have NOT had them checked since giving birth (a big No-No), and so I reqested the blood work at my Gyno’s office on Friday. Should hear back next week.
Part of the reason that I am worried about my thyroid is that I’ve been struggling with some pretty unrelenting feelings of fatigue, despair, and hopelessness – otherwise known as Depression – continuously for the past several months… as well as… shall I say it? Loss of libido. And if it’s not the thyroid from hell acting up and needing medication, then I need something – anti-depressants, therapy, maybe some cocaine? I dunno.
So, I have shared my big fat medical secrets with you, bloggy world.
Oh, and please forgive the lack of replies to all your wonderful comments recently. I have just been so tired and sick and it’s hard for me to even want to get online. I highly appreciate all the well-wishes sent! You guys rock.
I’m thinking of trying to eat some real food tonight. You know, FOOD? That stuff I LOVE?
Hope you are all having a great Christmas season! It’s almost that special day!
I can’t wait.





Veronica
Oh hun, I hope you feel better by Christmas day. Being sick in any shape or form is no fun.
I hope the tyroid tests show something, the symptoms certainly sound like thyroid issues. Then, they can fix it for you. Egads, no libido? Awful!
And uh, I would have freaked out about the pill as well, “Don’t touch it, just swallow it”? WTF? Scary.
(((hugs)))
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Marylin
aww darlin, i’m so sorry to hear you’ve been unwell recently, and that really sucks about the HT too. here’s some major ((((((((((((cyber hugs)))))))))) from me.
as for the no libido… mine only came back after zack when i wanted to be impregnated again – poor J doesn’t know what he’s done to deserve this, i used to have i high sex drive… now tbh i just can’t be bothered *sigh*
I was on anti-d’s last year for a while, normally i’m pretty cheerful etc but i got so low i just needed something to help me get back on an even keel if ya know what i mean. The first couple of wks while your body adjusts to em is hell on earth as they tend to have the opposite effect at first, but after that it’s amazing how quickly you can start to feel back to normal.
got my fingers crossed you’re guts are back to normal for Christmas, have a good one!
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Tiffany
Hugs.
Hope you are feeling better soon. Any paranoia going on with that depression? If there is, I would most definately say it’s thyroid. Hope they start treating it soon. I’ve seen HT alot in my travels.
Thanks for sharing your secret with us bloggy types.
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Julie
Sorry to hear about your poopy health issues. I had to deal with the unrelenting fatigue when the insurance co. and my gastroenterologist goofed up and I had to miss my medication for several months (I have Crohn’s disease). The side effects of not getting my drug treatment is joint pain and walloping fatigue…
I hate that feeling. I am very sorry to hear that you are dealing with all this, and I hope your Christmas is super.
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Dawn
what’s a libido?
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Secret Agent Mama
Oh dear Lotus, I hope you get everything straightened out soon, and I hope you are feeling better really soon. XOXOXOX
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2shews
Woo hoo! We can celebrate being young/old biddies together, what with our pills and our tests and our feelings. I bet your thyroid is wonky from having Braden. Did you know that as many as 20% of women experience some kind of thyroid change after giving birth?!? I KNOW! A good friend of mine’s thyroid just stopped workinf after her third– and was tired, depressed, and unmotivated (which she never was before.) And very un-horny. Turns out you need your thyroid for all kinds of stuff.
Thinking of you.
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Tasina
Lotus, I truly hope you start feeling better soon – especially so that you can enjoy the holiday. Also, look at things this way – at least taking that freaky pill didn’t make you drop out of the Matrix.
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Junebug
Oh, I hope you get to feeling better quickly and they find some medication to help your thyroid. I hope you have a Merry Christmas too. I had a kidney stone two years ago on Christmas and it was scary and painful.
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Amanda
My thyroid decided to stop working when I was about 14, and since then I have constantly been on medication until this one time that my brilliant doctor decided to take me off meds. It as terrible…The fatigue was so immense that I slept for around 5 months- until I could get again. Hope things are better soon, and I’m so glad you are getting it checked out. It’s amazing how much that little gland effects us.
Sandy (Momisodes)
Lotus, so sorry to hear. I hope you can eat real food in time for the holidays. And hoping all goes well with your tests. Take care of yourself first and foremost. Because if mama ain’t happy, no one’s happy…. xoxo
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Kay
Oh Lotus. I had major depression my sophomore year of college. It is no fun but I can sympathize… well not really with the loss of libido… never had much concern in that dept if you get my drift. But if you ever need anyone to talk to, i’m here. xoxoxo
Siobhan
I wrote out a lengthy response and then realised it was too personal for me to open to the whole world. Kind like Britney Spears and her knickers fiasco…check your e-mail.
Don Mills Diva
Oh Lotus – sorry to hear all this and hope you are feeling better soon. HUGS.
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Melisa
That totally sucks! I hope you feel better soon! Try to enjoy the holiday!
Melisa
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'cuz I'm the Mommy, that's why
I can totally sympathize! I ended up with “the scours” Thursday night too, don’t know if I caught Baby’s fever virus & Sister’s barfs, or if it was my own bug (we all know how likely that is), but I feel your pain. I had rice today, and the nectar of the gods, Kraft Mac & Cheese. Mmmm…
Take care of you! Merry Christmas!
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Lisa Milton
Stupid hashimoto’s – that sucks. I hope they find out the culprit and you feel better soon.
(Because cocaine is frowned on in my circles.)
Take care, Lotus.
A Jill of All Trades
Maybe I should play around with some raw chicken so I can lose the pounds I put on eating all of those damn cupcakes!!!
Hope you feel better soon….the only thing good about this time of year is all of the hefty amounts of food served!!!
I need to figure out what’s wrong with me. I’m suffering the same problems: depression, loss of libido. Poor hubby hasn’t had any in a week and 2 days. I know he’s DYING.
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Smiler
Sorry that you’re feeling badly. I’ve not had food poisoning so far (knock on wood) but I’ve had similar symptoms thought and I know it’s miserable. As for the more, shall we way, chronic condition, that seems like a big one to deal with, but I’m sure there are ways. Most of all, I think it takes some time to adapt and accept that there is a condition there that is not going away on it’s own anytime soon. That’s hard. I’m dealing with that every day myself still. And figuring out how to get the best care can seem overwhelming sometimes.
But if you are feeling symptoms of depression, it doesn’t matter what the source of the problem is, you should have yourself checked out for that and possibly take medication. Makes it easier dealing with life when you’re not constantly trying to push the cobwebs away.
I’ve found that there is sooooo much support on the blogosphere when it comes to health issues, quite amazing actually.
Hope you feel better soon. And please, do NOT reply to this comment unless you have something very very important to share (doubtful). You’ve got enough on your plate as it is.
Take good care
xx
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janet
hope you feel better soon, lotus.
(((hugs)))
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kara - down to earth mommy
awwww. I hope you feel better. Thanks for being so honest with your readers/fans/net friends. I hope Christmas is full of happiness and not sickies.
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Lilacspecs
I have PCOS. I understand endocrinological (spelling there is questionable) pains in the ass.
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Stephen
I hope you feel better soon.
Two more sleeps to the big day.
imaginary sarah
Aw, Lotus. I want to caress your thyroid and make it all better, and then caress your belly to soothe away the beasties. How much is it to fly to Nashville?
*searches for low airfares*
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Jenty
Hope you feel better soon. There’s nothing worse than feeling sick over Christmas, especially with all the yummy foods over this period.
Hope the results of the tests are clear!
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Maggie
I’m just now catching up on life online, and I’m so sorry to hear about all the icky going on. Hope you are all better, all real soon!
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rachel
Wow. So sorry honey.
You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
Keep us updated.
Merry Christmas to you and yours.
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Jamie
I’m so sorry.
Health problems suck.
Hope you have a wonderful Christmas with your adorable boy and sweet husband!
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kim aka frogpondsrock..
Hugs to you lotus… Great big Humungous healing hugs..
xxxxxx
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jill
i havent been reading you long enough to know. not that its my business- are you on birth control. that just about murdered me. finally off of it after 6 years and i am just about back to normal. no depression. libido way up. seriously give it a thought. also, do you live on caffeine? gave that up to and do much much better. merry christmas!
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