Mah Mojo, She A-Go-Go Away
It’s true. My mojo is what usually drives me to rant, joke, and jibber-jabber.
But she’s gone.
And I’m feeling like I’m just a shadow of my former self, right now.
My usual M.O. is that I have silly/sarcastic/bitchy/rantlike/dumb thoughts and reactions to things throughout the day, most days, and I share them with you in my posts.
But depression of a special kind has whisked my mojo away to a far-off land and is rubbing its feet and feeding it chocolates, and it does not want to return to me.
Yes, my mojo has taken a page from my book and has become a selfish, self-centered, gluttonous lazy douche.
*sniff*
I’m so proud of that freakin’ bitch.
So, lately, when I’m not crying The Ugly Cry or whipping out some classic Big Fat Ugly Lack of Grace I feel like I’m just “blahing” it through the day.
It’s not that I haven’t had things I wanted to write about, or good ideas for posts. In fact, I have been having ideas off and on every day… moments where I think, “Ah, I should tell them about this….”
But I’m lacking that “oomph” I had before that actually started the engines.
I still have passing humorous thoughts, but they don’t linger, and when I think about creating a post surrounding one of them, my head starts feeling really heavy and my heart just sighs and doesn’t feel like it.
Clearly, my head and heart are yet another couple of lazy douches. This whole lazy douche thing is really contagious, yeh?
[Aside: Have you ever noticed how often I talk about being a lazy douche? And you thought trolls were good for nothing. Thanks, Dana, for the most fun running gag I've found since talking about my bewbs (aka The Rack). Seriously, trolls are funny.]
Anyway, I’m still here, still bitchyesque and rantalicious with a little happy sillification trying to make its way back in. And I’m sure it will, eventually. Just couldn’t go on living if that didn’t come back, really.
Most of the time my motivation control knob is turned up to a higher level. (In fact, it goes all the way to 11. Unlike most other knobs that only go to 10. When I need an extra push, I can go “one louder” than you losers with only 10….)
But right now, some asshole has me turned down to about 3.
Bear with me… it might take me some time to get back to “full volume.” But I promise I’m going to do my best to grab that knob and try to crank it.
Heh.
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VDog
I think you know I’ve experienced much the same (only different, if you catch my drift?)
Anyways, I know what you’re sayin’. Love ya, come back when you’ve got your Mojo back, k??
(((HUGS)))
VDogs last blog post..Something So Small
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Lee the MWOB Queen
oh take your time. sometimes there’s nothing left to do but hang out in the blahness for a little while until your mojo decides to paddle on back to shore after floating around in a big ocean of crashing waves. you know? i haven’t read you for long but your voice is clear. even when you say you’re not yourself.
one day, that 11 deal will be back full throttle and then some….until then….hang in there.
the pic is so cool though – now THAT’S one reason to feel okay about the no mojo feeling…
Gabriel
Mojo temporarily gone, ‘lazy duchism’ and everything, we’re still coming back because we know we are always going to find something good here.
Take all the time you want. We are very patient.
Gabriels last blog post..Weekly Winners #45 – Dec/21 to Dec/27
connie
Give yourself time Lotus~you’ve been thru ALOT the last few months. Give yourself time to heal, grieve, re-group & re-charge. And, you’re not alone~we’re all here to lift you up when you need it. Take care Lotus~just breathe! (((big hugs)))
connies last blog post..Weekly Winners=December 21-27 2008
Veronica
[Insert lovely calming comment here]
(((hugs)))
Veronicas last blog post..BREASTS!
Michelle
Your mojo will return when fully rested (or over-chocolated).
Meanwhile, just stay day to day in your ‘blahness’, cause that’s what you need to do right now. And we’ll keep sitting with you, coming by each day to say hello, and loving you.
Taz
i’ll be waiting
Tazs last blog post..Merry Christmas
Piper
It’s just this phase of your moon, it’s just a season.
This too shall pass, believe it.
It’s only the times like this when we grow, you know? It’s uncomfortable and unfamiliar but it’s still for the good in the long run.
Hang in there and exhale the pressure you are putting on yourself… just be.
love love love!
Pipers last blog post..My Aching Back is Back
Heather, Queen of Shake Shake
Perfectly understandable.
Heather, Queen of Shake Shakes last blog post..And this is where insanity begins. Alternate title: What I did NOT get for Christmas
Domestic Extraordinaire
We’ll be here when it returns (((hugs)))
Domestic Extraordinaires last blog post..Do you know what time it is?
HappyCampers
I’m not going anywhere! You rawk! And I wonder…how many Google Search hits do you get for “douche?” anyway?
In all seriousness–as always–I love your honesty & you really, really make me feel like I’m not alone…
HappyCamperss last blog post..From Our House To Yours….
lceel
I would be perfectly happy to turn your control knobs up to and 11 or a 12 even, but I’m afraid if I touched those things, John would kill me or (more likely) I’d become so fond of the process I’d never be able to let go – and THEN what?
lceels last blog post..Still no breaks
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Joie at Canned Laughter
Know that we are thinking of you and you don’t owe nobody nuthin. ((hugs))
Joie at Canned Laughters last blog post..Another Geeky Movie Review
Lori Downs
I know what you are feeling, I just blogged about my mojo being gone too! Maybe its in the water? Are we on the same water suppy??
Lori Downss last blog post..Happy Day around here! !
perpstu
I understand mojo loss so well…..I hope yours comes back to you soon! (((HUGS)))
Twitter: perpstu
Special K
It will come back, it just takes time!
I remember my 2nd miscarriage taking longer to process too.
Special Ks last blog post..Home Improvements? Check. Life Improvements? Still working on…
Kayla Meow
(((Hugs))) I know how it feels, believe it or not. Lord knows, my knob has been turned down more occasions than I care to count. And it always comes back, but you already know that.
I’m praying for you and John and Braden! Here’s to hoping your mojo comes back sooner than later.
Kayla Meows last blog post..Our early Christmas
anne
Well, it’s one more motivated, isn’t it? It’s not ten. You see, most blokes, you know, will be motivated at ten. You’re on ten here (points to “knobs” on chest), all the way up, all the way up, all the way up, you’re on ten on your mojo. Where can you go from there? Where?
Why don’t you just make ten more mojo and make ten be the top number and make that a little more motivated?
(pauses, points to “knobs”)These go to eleven.
annes last blog post..best of 2008
Sarcastic Mom, aka Lotus
@anne,
YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!
This multiplied my love for you by infinity.
Twitter: LotusCarroll
John Carroll
@anne, Without a doubt, the coolest comment… EVER!!
Twitter: thejohncarrollgmail.com
anne
Why thank you, my dears. I couldn’t resist. Too much talk of “knobs” and mojo and lazy douchery for me to NOT say anything!
*smooches*
annes last blog post..best of 2008
Angel Smith
Not that what I was going through was similar to what you are wading through, but when my teenage son started behaving extremely troubled I stopped blogging for a few months, too. I just didn’t have it in me. It was all I could do to put one foot in front of the other.
You concentrate on functioning on the necessary levels. We’ll be here when you can face the extra stuff.
(If you feel that nagging guilt about not posting that I am reading between your lines, maybe invite one (or more) of your favorite bloggers to guest post? But really, the guilt isn’t necessary. We understand that you will need some time and space to grieve.)
Angel Smiths last blog post..Whew. It’s all over.
Sarah
No rush. I know you’ll get back to your old self!! It’s going to take time!!
Sarahs last blog post..2009 Goals – Goal #1 – Body Image
Twitter: sadiecass
Barbara
You know we’ll wait for you. Take care and we’ll keep tuning in using various knobs.
Barbaras last blog post..363/366 – Best Foot Forward
Lisa
Whoa?! You can overload on chocolate? Dammit!
Take all the time you need ((hugs))
Lisas last blog post..Weekly Winners
stephanie
Yep, I agree with everyone. Take your time. When your mojo does come back, she will be extra happy after all those foot rubs and chocolates.
But are you sure it didn’t fall between the couch cushions? Or behind the fridge? You might as well check. You never know.
Jessica
We will still love you
Honestly, I check this blog every day.
Tanya
Nobody forces anyone to be funny all the time, but everyone enjoys a good laugh once in awhile. You have had me in stitches laughing and nearly in tears from heartache. If you only make one person laugh, you have enriched their life.
Tanyas last blog post..Cola’s Corn Cobbs
Melinda
*huggles and cuddles* I understand, sweetie. I have four angels of my own. I also understand there is nothing in the world worse than staring at that ultrasound machine. I have three wonderful girls though, and it does get better after a while. Be sad, be mad, throw things, scream, cry, sleep and sleep and sleep…we will all be here when you are ready to come and post again.
Twitter: MelindaHamby
Tarasview
hmmmm…. seems I know that feeling. And you know what? It’s ok. Take your time. Grief is a tough taskmaster and it seems to require more than an average amount of your energy for life.
love to you.
Tarasviews last blog post..Pneumonia strikes again
Eve
I’m kinda in that place where I have good ideas for blogs but no follow through to actually write and post anything. I’m sure this, too, will pass. I’m just not sure when. Let’s hang in there together.
Eves last blog post..After-Christmas Doldrums
Mrs. Schmitty
Take all the time you need. I know I’ll still be here, reading, no matter what. Hugs!
Mrs. Schmittys last blog post..Put Your Thinking Caps On To Win!
maggiesmind
You do your thing, and we’ll keep sending hugs. Maybe chocolate items, too.
Dory
Just take your time… it’s going to take you a while to heal… don’t hurry it. You’ll get there. And your Mojo, she’ll be waiting for you.
Dorys last blog post..Weekly Winners for 12/21 – 12/27
Kat
This comment is to the tune of “Loving you” by Minnie Ripperton
Loving you
Is easy ‘cause you’re a lazy douche…
Looking at your bewbs
Is all I want to do….
Lazy Douche,
You’re more than just a bitch, it’s true…
And all the commenting that I do
Is out of loving you….
No one else can make me feel
The mojo that you bring…
Kats last blog post..That’s Some Funny Sh*!
Walking With Scissors
Bahaha. Love me some Spinal Tap. That has got to be one of the most classic scenes from that movie. I also like the scene where David and Nigel both have cold sores. At the same time. Tee hee. Oh, and the 18 inch Stonehenge. Ahahaha!!
Ahem.
Your mojo will come back, Lotus. You are too effervescent for it to want to stay on vacation for too long.
Oh, and I read all that crap with Dana. Boy, she sure crawled back into her cave in a hurry. Verbally beat down by a lazy douche like you, imagine that.
Walking With Scissorss last blog post..Merry Christmas, My Friends
Colleen - Mommy Always Wins
Hoping your “knob” gets “cranked” (*wink* *wink*) sometime again soon. Hang in there, woman! Till then we’ll all be knobbie enough to make up for ya!
Colleen – Mommy Always Winss last blog post..So whadda ya think?
Twitter: mommy_wins
Colleen
Just take a look at that adorable, chubby, little hand on top of yours at the top of your blog. Damn if that’s not the cutest little thing. It brought a smile to my face. I just want to pinch it!
Colleens last blog post..French Bread Thief: Golden Retriever Guilty as Charged
Corey ~living and loving
we’ll be here when the mojo….is a go go again. HUGS!
Corey ~living and lovings last blog post..2008~ A year in Review
Just a mom
(((HUGS)))
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kristin
Dude funny comes to you, that’s who you are. You’ll get your MOJo back you betta believe it!
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Jennifer
your mojo will be back. I’ll be here when you get back. And of course I want to see who’s gonna be keeping the seat warm over here too.
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