love at the tips of her fingers
he’s lucky my kid wanted to see a butterfly emerge from a chrysalis
i bet you i could drive to the end with my eyes closed
when you’re in love, sometimes rainbows shoot out of your butt
it’s a long process, turning from a mannequin into a real woman
with everything within her, she reaches out
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
what stories it must hold
watching you watching me
Yes, you read that correctly. I KNOW.
I love mojitos. Don’t even be all, “Duh, you love Mojitos, Lotus, I mean, REALLY. What alcoholic beverages do you NOT like? Pffffff.” Also, I swear I will slap you if I hear you mutter “fucking drunk” under your breath.
Unless you hand me a glass of wine right after you do it. Then we’re cool.
What the hell was I talking about? Oh yeah, Sake Champagne Mojitos. RIGHT. Found this recipe from Joylicious via @Pinterest and I’m in love with it. So I decided to share the recipe with you, because I’m a giver. And an awesome person. (And so humble. To a fault.)
You can click the link above (credit where credit is due) to get to the post where I found the recipe. Or if you’re a lazy asshole, you can just read it below, with my notes. (And by notes, I mean, I changed it to please myself.)
Sake Champagne Mojitos
- Bottle Sake
- Bottle Champagne
- Large bunch of mint (4-6oz)
- Juice of 6-8 limes
- Light Agave Nectar (to taste – I used about 2/3 cup)*
- Lots of ice cubes/chunks
Wash mint, tear leaves from stems and place in a large pitcher with the lime juice and sweetener of your choice (*I used Agave Nectar, original recipe uses Liquid Stevia, you could use honey or simple syrup, too). If you have a muddler, break that mother out. If not, grab a wooden spoon and use the back of it to muddle the leaves, juice, & sweetener in the pitcher.
Muddle is a funny word. Make sure you laugh a lot while you’re muddling.
Muddle. Muddle. Muddle.
*snicker* *chuckle* *teehee*
Muddle. Muddle. Muddle.
Add the entire bottle of Sake & the entire bottle of Champagne. (Except for those “tastes” you might feel you have to take from the bottle. What? Shut up. Don’t judge me.)
Stir and then serve over lots of ice.
Be happy in your heart.
Dance on patio tables in the summer sun.
Take photos and send them to me.
It is not flesh and blood but the heart which makes us fathers and sons. ~Johann Schiller
Happy Father’s Day!
bubbles are an instant path to happiness
i’ll meet you somewhere over the rainbow
at the end of the day
she has so much to say
Okay, so maybe I got a leetle bit pissed off when I saw this image on Pinterest tonight.
And maybe I went a leetle bit overboard on the “description” when I repinned it.
and the princess didn’t have her heart broken by a man who couldn’t keep his dick to himself for more than five seconds because she was smart enough to say no to the pretty face that was hiding the vile creature behind it. And she had all the time in the world to then pursue her own interests and be the person she was meant to be, reveling in her identity and fulfilling her aspirations fully. She spent as much time as she wanted with the best girlfriends who always built her up and cared about what she was saying rather than pretending to listen and hoping she was soon done. And she hand selected the finest young men to keep her company (and then sent them on their way when she was bored with them) and she read books and made beautiful art and sun bathed and nobody ever left the fucking toilet seat up or made her have to drag their feelings out of them like driving nails into brick because they were such poor communicators that she just wanted to scream into infinity in those miserable moments of complete relationship hell when she would rather be twirling through the living room, singing her favorite song at top volume. She didn’t have to share the remote or watch any sports she didn’t want to, and she only got foot rubs with her pedicures and nobody expected her to have sex with them just for doing it. She smiled every day because she wanted to, not because she was pretending she was happy, and nobody needed her to fetch them a beer or make their food first so that by the time she ate hers it was cold. She played with lady bugs and stopped to smell the flowers every day. Her friends and family thought she was fucking awesome because she was able to live her life to her full potential instead of for some loser who resented her for not wanting him to drink jack daniels every fucking night. And she never had to sleep in the goddamned wet spot. THE END.
Yeah, maybe a little too far.
(Who am I kidding?! That shit had it coming.)
Children laugh a lot. It is a beautiful thing.
A few nights ago, I heard my son laugh from upstairs. The laughter tinkled merrily down the stairs from up high to down where I was standing in the kitchen. It was the laugh of a four year old – giddy, unrestrained, and in those chucklesome, high-pitched, and somehow fairy-like tones that only children that young can achieve.
That night I heard the free, sincere, heartfelt laughter of my son, and I had a thought, suddenly. It hit me without consideration and washed over me harshly. It did not care what I was doing when it came on, or where it would leave me after it fled into the night beyond me.
And the thought was this:
There will come a day when I will not be so privileged as to hear that sound anymore as a common occurrence in my life, my day to day What Is, my moments possible to take for granted (even though I don’t want to). There will come a time when that laugh does not even exist anymore.
There will be a day when forever more I will not be able to hear that sound. His laughter will still be accessible to me (sometimes) but it will never sound that way again. It will become lost forever in the vault, deep and wide and sometimes difficult to navigate, that contains my lifetime of memories.
And memories have this awful way of fading and being so hard to recall in a tangible way, so hard to truly feel in the same way as they were once experienced.
I stood there, at the foot of the stairs, frozen in that moment. I stood there, playing that brief sound over and over in my head, savoring it. I was all alone, and may have nearly appeared catatonic in that moment of true consideration and revelation.
Braden may never know that he’s ever done something so simple but so incredibly and effortlessly meaningful that it captivated his mother so greatly. He might not realize that she once stood quietly relishing the joyous beauty of a 3 second laugh he uttered about a little bit of something more than nothing that faded into the night without him giving it another passing thought.
When I write these moments, it is like I’m drawing a map to put up on the inside of that vault, so that when I dive into it later, so much later, maybe I can find these most important of thoughts and feelings, these memories of the most golden days, and hold them near me again for a few moments.
And I will know.
And now you do, too.
you got your mint all over my lime, baby
what color should we paint the world today?
she wants to be held under the moon
And they all say to pour it has to rain, so don’t complain if we get wet in the deep end.
~Ben Lee (Love Me Like the World is Ending)
and her world became brighter
it’s been a long day
can you hold my hand as we slide inside?
waiting for the black to replace my blue
watch him hover
all of these days with him are gold
impatient for all of her tomorrows
Sometimes Braden (now age 4.5) asks me how to say things in Spanish. I go to this website and we enter words and then we learn now to say them together. He especially enjoys the feature where you can actually listen to a pronunciation of the word. Unfortunately, however, he gets really frustrated when we encounter a Spanish word with an “r” in it, and he can’t say it exactly the same way. I’ve tried to help him learn how to roll his r’s, but he hasn’t been successful yet.
Today he asked how to say “tree” in Spanish. The answer is “arbol.” He became very frustrated about the sound of his r’s again. I began encouraging him to keep trying, but he just kept telling me, “NO, because I CAN’T do it.” This prompted me to launch into a long discussion with him about how you have to keep trying when you can’t do something the first time, rather than giving up, if you really want to learn it. I even gave him examples from my childhood.
(I totally went through torturous and seemingly endless trials in front of the bathroom mirror to learn how to roll my tongue. I was going to be damned if my brother could do that and I could not, and refused to believe the BS idea everyone was feeding me that it’s a genetic trait and you can’t do it unless you inherit that. IN YO FACE, FALSE POP SCIENCE.)
Braden indicated he didn’t agree with my sage advice about trying and learning. So I told him that he can take a slightly easier path and trust my advice, or he can be stubborn and take the hard road through life. He considered this for a few moments, and replied, “I think that instead, I am going to take the heart road, Mommy.”
Braden: “I’m going to take the heart road instead.”
Me: “Oh? What is that road like?”
Braden: “It has lots of heart patterns on it. Red ones and pink ones too, and I like them. And lots of heart rocks. And heart shaped trees.”
Me: “How does that make you feel?”
Braden: “It makes me feel so happy.”
Me: “And where does this road lead?”
Braden: “It leads to everywhere you want to go. And there are stars racing in the sky.”
My friends, the heart road is paved with red and pink heart patterns, strewn with heart rocks, and lined with heart shaped trees. It will make you feel happy, stars will race in the sky overhead as you travel, and it leads to “everywhere you want to go.”
I guess being happy on “the heart road” is better than being miserable while struggling to learn rolling your r’s in the long run, huh? This kid kind of totally disarms me every damn day. And he really has no idea how brilliant these things he says really are.
I’m still a firm believer in trying for the things you desire, but I’m glad to have someone in my life who reminds me it’s not always a bad idea to voluntarily take the heart road.