Puppies: They’re just better.
I wrote a very, very short and moody, desperate and pathetic post a few weeks ago about getting hit upside the heart again by the desire for my lost babies.
It really never goes away. It just hides a little sometimes, lurking; waiting for the right time to shit on your world. Or mine. Guess I can’t really speak for others.
Or yours, maybe, is true, since I’m publishing this crap.
I thought about sharing that post with you now that the bewbs of BEWB Fest 09 have been filed away… because really? Sharing it with you right at the same time as going, “OMG LOOK! IT’S BEWBS!” just didn’t feel right. And everything about bewbs generally feels good, so why ruin that? I mean. Really.
So I thought about sharing it with you now, in all of its deep and philosophical questioning glory (read: whiny and pathetic yearning-filled, demanding inquisitiveness). I thought about making you read trite crap like, “I’m stuck whining the same things, being the same pathetic empty, yearning bag over and over again.”
And
“When will it get so old that my heart just implodes from feeling the same tortured longing one.more.time?”
And the rest of it, too. But no, I saved it as a text file entitled, “baby nonsense.”
I did make you read part of it, now, didn’t I? Manipulative, emotional arse, I am. But you’ll not have to read that in its entirety.
Instead, please enjoy looking at this cute puppy.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/conwayl/ / CC BY-ND 2.0
I like puppies.
They are way, way better than fetuses that are ripped out of your uterus.
Of course, then they grow up and pee on your baseboards and shit on the kitchen floor.
I have such a positive outlook.
I could use a few glitter coated unicorns flying out of my ass on rainbows during times like this.
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Jessica
Oh babe.. My heat aches and yearns with yours. I feel as though I’m seated with you on your roller coaster in each post. I wish I had a magic pill to send to you. Sending love your way.
Jessi
.-= Jessica´s last blog ..Lonesome =-.
Veronica
Blech. I’m even over puppies right now. Actually, I’m stuck somewhere having panic attacks occasionally. Sigh.
(((hugs))) Lots of hugs.
.-= Veronica´s last blog ..Well now =-.
Jeanette
I think that even if you dont post anything in public, that you should write it all down privately. Who cares if people think you’re whiney… this is your space to whine.
(((HUGS)))
.-= Jeanette´s last blog ..Worldwide photowalk in Johannesburg – Part 2 =-.
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lceel
Any way you want to be is fine with me. I luvz ya, Lotus. That doesn’t change with your mood. Or mine.
.-= lceel´s last blog ..A Lesson Learned =-.
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the planet of janet
hugs, hon. it will get better.
one day.
.-= the planet of janet´s last blog ..Weekly Winners: July 12-18 =-.
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Jenn
You post whatever you want whenever you want. If people think you’re whiny they can suck it.
Jenn
By the way, puppies are fantastic. But not when they are 14 year old grumpy dalmations that you have to alternately hate for peeing on the bed and check to make sure they are breathing when they are too soundly asleep.
.-= Jenn´s last blog ..Running? What running? =-.
Earth_Mommy
You know, after my third loss I talked hubby into our second dog. We ended up with a shepard/chow rescued from Hurricane Katrina through HALO. Three months later I was pregnant again and both dogs layed in bed with me while I slept and worried until out of the first trimester. I lubs my doggies.
And, no, the missing of lost babies never really goes away. But it does lessen in time. *huggles and snuggles*
.-= Earth_Mommy´s last blog ..Weekly Winners =-.
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cbrks12
You’re doing it right. You are grieving and getting that pain out one tear and one word at a time. Grieve and get it out. Or it stays there quietly waiting to rip you in half later.
And you’re not whiny or pathetic. You have experienced two heart wrenching losses. I thank you for showing us the reality of that loss.
Here’s hoping you have a small horned glittery unicorn making it’s way out of your butt right now.
Amo
Despite the pain, you have such a beautiful outlook and I admire that. The way you share your world with us all through your words and pictures is quite inspiring. To know there is such pain behind it, only helps us to realize that it is okay to grieve too.
Thank you for your beauty.
.-= Amo´s last blog ..Weekly Lessons LEARNED =-.
Secret Mom Thoughts
Wish I could give you a hug. And it is not whiny, it is grieving.
.-= Secret Mom Thoughts´s last blog ..Not Me Monday =-.
Missives From Suburbia
Sorry, I can’t look at puppies without thinking about dog hair all over my house, diarrhea being squeezed out of dog kennels like some kind of corporate merger between Willy Wonka and a Play-Doh factory, and hair all over my house. I have seen cute puppies, and I have lived the future. It is one filled with (dare I say it again?) DOG HAIR ALL OVER THE HOUSE and heart-wrenching angst when they finally leave your world (not to mention the guilt you feel for not paying attention to them as much as you should, because you have kids).
So my heart continues to bleed for you over those sweet babies of yours, and no amount of cute puppy is going to distract me. Diarrhea shooting out the wire door of a dog kennel, perhaps. But not a puppy.
Hugs.
.-= Missives From Suburbia´s last blog ..Apathy Sold Separately =-.
Leslie
There are no rules for getting through this sort of stuff. You’re not whiny. Don’t worry that people will think you are. They won’t. Even if some do, they’re not nearly as important as the ones that can relate to what you’re going through and find a little comfort knowing they’re not alone.
You’re stronger than you think.
.-= Leslie´s last blog ..Free At Last! =-.
Tranny Head
*sending ass-flying glitter-coated rainbows and unicorns your way*
.-= Tranny Head´s last blog ..The Best Two Years of my Life in Photos =-.
christie
miscarriages suck
*hugs*
K13
Very cute puppy and YES miscarriages and depression suck. Hope you are feeling better soon!!
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Hotmamamia
It DOES go away Lotus. You have to LET IT GO. And I’m saying that from experience…been there and had to let it go. Or the depression sucks the life out of you…you have a wonderful partner and a MAGNIFICENT child. Cherish what you have…they are here, now, as are you.
Let that day pass and PLAN to do lots of other things with who you have and who you love, NOW…
Rock the world at BlogHer…
.-= Hotmamamia´s last blog ..heeeeeeeere’s the mammogram! =-.