Some things are easier to fix than others.
John doesn’t particularly care for my nose stud/gem, but I really love it.
On Tuesday morning, I had to take it out for the surgery (D&C).
By Tuesday night, it was a little difficult to get back in, but not impossible. It’s there again.
I actually considered just giving it up… leaving it out forever, letting my nose be as empty as I feel. Because it seems like so much bullshit for me to care if I can put it back in.
The nose gem isn’t what I really want back.
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Dawn
damn straight hot girl.
now go eat some chocolate and read some smart ass maxi pads
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Sarcastic Mom, aka Lotus
@Dawn,
Funny… I was just stuffing that chocolate in my face last night while I sat here with one of your wonderful pads snuggled up to my hooch.
Love you.<3
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A Jill of All Trades
Aww…..honey. My heart aches for you. I’ve followed your blog for so long that I feel partial to your loss.
((much love))
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Colleen - Mommy Always Wins
{sigh} There’s nothing I can offer you but the thought that I care, and I’m sorry. {hugs}
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laura
i am so very sorry.
hugs and hugs and more hugs
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Loralee
Most things will seem pointless and empty right now, I’m sure.
(((((((((((((LOVE)))))))))))))))))))))))))
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@Loralee,
I emailed ya. But I wanted to say here that, dude… your gravatar is HOT.
I’m so glad I added gravatars here… Heh.
<3
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Sarah @ TM2TS
I can’t really think of anything to say that would even come off as helpful, but the nose stud struggling to go back in and you considering not putting it back in, but doing it anyway, is kind of symbolic. While it’s not as hard to put a nose stud back in, it did happen.
Yeah, so that doesn’t sound at all like it sounded in my head, but hopefully you’ll understand.
*hugs*
Talina
I like the nose gem and chocolate but not maxi pads. Those damn things feel like diapers! You should have just strapped on a diaper and photographed yourself. It could have brought some mild enjoyment to the day.
I am so sorry *hugs*
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Vic
Was going to suggest the chocolate thing too. In fact, anything with sugar would probably do the job. Take your time sugar, things won’t fix themselves over night, but they will, don’t worry about that one.
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@Vic,
I got lucky and Dawn sent me a box of chocolate, so I can stuff away.
I know the healing takes time, to be sure. That just means you’ll see me lamenting my sorrows for quite a while.
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Amy @ Milk Breath & Margaritas
~love and hugs~
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Rebecca
Many many hugs to you…
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Mary
I’m so sorry. When I lost my baby, I got a necklace with what would have been her birtstone. I like to wear it now and then. It still hurts, but I’m at a point now where it’s a managable pain. Maybe you should get a new stud in December’s birthstone. Sometime it helps to have something tangible.
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@Mary,
What a great idea – but I think maybe I’ll get 2 stones on a necklace when I tackle this one – One for the baby who was supposed to be born this month, and another for this baby, who was supposed to be born in June.
And just hope I don’t have to add any more gems to it, eh?
Thank you… I have been brainstorming things that John and I can do, and I think this one will be meaningful to me.
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stephanie
@Sarcastic Mom, aka Lotus, What a sweet idea!
You could also get the other side of your nose pierced too. What? You don’t think that would be cute?
Sarcastic Mom, aka Lotus
@stephanie,
LOL John already dislikes the first one… let’s be gentle on him.
Maybe a lip piercing instead? *chuckle*
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Gabriel
Lotus, hang in there. I don’t think there’s a person in this world (OK, let’s narrow the scope, the thousands that come here everyday) that doesn’t feel for you and John these days.
The stones are a good idea, and no, you won’t have to add any more. I promise.
Hugs,
Gabriel
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lceel
Just an item of curiosity – but if you ever get a nipple ring, are you gonna post pictures? Because I’m something of a fan of the RACK – in case you didn’t know that – and I WOULD want to be assured that said ring was, at least, tasteful. OMG Did I say that?
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Gabriel
lceel, you da man!
Let’s start a fundraiser, Lou. Right here, right now.
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stephanie
I’m glad you put it back in. Why doesn’t John like it? Is he jealous ‘cuz he wants to be the only stud in your life?
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@stephanie,
Dunno, he just never cared for the look of it. It’s kind of sweet, really, he says he likes my face with nothing else on it.
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Walking With Scissors
I’m so sorry, still. And always. I think the birthstone idea is fantastic. I know it’s not the same at all, but when my best friend lost her dad, she planted a tree in his honour in the backyard. She loves it because it’s a living thing she gets to take care of in remembrance of him.
Also, what the heck is a gravatar? And how do I get one?
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@Walking With Scissors,
We are actually planning on planting a tree for each baby we’ve lost now. But we want to wait until we’re not renting anymore, so we don’t have to leave them. That would be too traumatic for me!
And gravatars are awesome! You can get one really easily – just go to http://en.gravatar.com/ and sign up and register the email address you use to comment on blogs. Any blog with them activated will then have your chosen avatar displayed with your comment.
Here, you get my default one, which will change over time. Right now it’s The Mexican in a Santa Hat, because hell, that’s just festive and it makes me smile.
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Maggie's Mind
Yep, I get that, maybe differently, but in my own way related to a hideous scar of my childlessness that I maybe could have reduced/erased, but it still wouldn’t make me a mother. I’m still glad you put the nose ring back in, though. You’ll be feeling cheery again, at some point and in your own time, and even if it doesn’t mean you could ever forget and all that, and you may as well be adorning your hotness when you do, right? Sending more hugs, just in case.
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Special K
Just checkin’ in on you! ((HUGS))!
Chris
I think the nose stud is hot. Good thing you didn’t have one back in the day…may not have been able to contain myself. lol.
Let me know if there’s anything I can do for you. K?
Sarcastic Mom, aka Lotus
@Chris,
RAWR! You know, right before I left Brookstone, I went all nutty and died my hair a million odd colors and pierced my nose.
BECAUSE I COULD. Man, being restrained for years drove me INSANE(er).
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Chris
@Sarcastic Mom, aka Lotus,
I’m feeling the need to go nutty. Does it hurt?
Sarcastic Mom, aka Lotus
@Chris,
Depends on how much it bothers the people around you and whether or not they retaliate in painful ways. Heh.
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Chaos
I personally am a fan of the nose stud. Why doesn’t John like them? Maybe a few more will change his mind!
connie
Big hugs Lotus. I think purchasing birthstones is a fantaastic idea~I’m going to go out & do that for my son that was stillborn.
I ♥ nose rings! One of my sisters got one a couple years ago & I told Bobby that I wanted to get one~just a SMALL stud. He gave me utter hell about it~he said, “No wife of mine is going to have her nose pierced!” Oh well
Maybe someday…
Take care of yourself Lotus & give yourself as much time as you need.
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Walking With Scissors
I tried to make one. I’m just going to waste a teensy bit of space on here to see if it worked.
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Walking With Scissors
frack! one more little bit.
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Walking With Scissors
Oh, forget it. I’ll leave your comment forum alone now.
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@Walking With Scissors,
LOL It worked, though! Good job.
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Veronica
Love you. Now go eat more chocolate.
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@Veronica,
Yes m’am! Love you, too. <3
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Ashlie- Mommycosm
I’m following along and just don’t know what to say. Just wanted you to know that I’m here and I’m sending a ton of positive energy your way and that I think you are incredibly brave for sharing right now.
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Jenny
glad you made it through the proceedure okay… I emailed you- in a couple of places… still coming this way for Christmas?? lmk…
Rachel
My dear one.
hugs. Hope the chocolate was good and bless you sweet one
I love the gemstone bracelet/charm idea.
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Barbara Baker
Dear Lotus,
I have been following you for quite sometime and have always been fond of your writing and have often read your posts to my husband. You’ve brought me laughs and sarcasm that cant be mimicked and I just wanted to say that I’m sorry you are going through this.
Take care!!!!
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Jessica
Many hugs! BTW I love the nose piercing, I always wanted one, but couldn’t for work (at that time). So, I got my tongue pierced instead.
Karen MEG
I think the piercing looks great on you. Glad that the procedure went okay, I’ve been thinking about you…
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Eve
I can’t think of a thing to say that would be helpful. I think the necklace is a really good idea. I wish I had done that for my babies.
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Secret Agent Mama
I puffy heart you. Hope you know!
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Tara R.
ah honey… there are no words to make it better. Sometimes all you can do is cry and then hold your son and your husband and cry some more.
love to you.
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Taz
thinking of you hun..
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kompostela
I think I’m like John:) It doesn’t matter much for me if you with stud or not:))
Love how the photo of your dog match my comments:)))
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Texan Mama
I’m glad you put it back in. Otherwise, every time you thought about it or saw someone else with a nose stud or saw a nose stud at the jewelry store or whatever, you’d be like, “I used to have one of those, until…” It would be just one more constant reminder. I know how you feel right now. HUGS to you.
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