Space: In terms of family, it’s just a myth.
Today’s Photohunt Theme is “Space”
No matter how much space you have between you and the family members you grew up with, they can reach out and slap you as easily as if they were just whispering in your ear a moment ago.
It’s not just the fact that we are so connected nowadays, though that is what enables it. But the slap is sharp and quick because they hold a part of you.
No matter how far away from you they are, no matter how long it has been since you have spoken or seen one another, they have the ammunition to bring you to your knees.
They know things that no one else knows. They are always the quickest to offense and the most equipped to pull you down… and why is it that they always seem to opt to exercise that power when you’re finally lifting your head above your own sordid bullshit?
Many of us have stories that fall into this zone, this space of feeling and emotion.
Sometimes, I just want to stop hearing the ones that play over and over in my head. And I’d like to stop adding new ones to the list.
And if you could successfully edit the reel of memories that plays back inside of you from the past… would you even want to?
Can we appreciate the good times if we don’t have the bad times?
This double edged sword of emotions is piercing my heart today.
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Mrs. Flinger
Ahhh, you’re killing me. Love this post. Love you. XO
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Maggie's Mind
“No matter how far away from you they are, no matter how long it has been since you have spoken or seen one another, they have the ammunition to bring you to your knees.”
Worse is when they have no idea what kind of a blow they have dealt you nor how long it will take you to recover and to pick your teeth up out of the carpet with your stinging eyes blurred with the wet of a lifetime of snowballs worth of tears.
This is public. I’ll leave it there. And I’ll send you a hug. This is the hardest stuff.
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Cameron
Sadly, no. There is no good without bad.
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Jientje
I can so relate to that post.
I’m with you and Maggie on this one.
Hugs Lotus xxx
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Veronica
Just hugs for this one.
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Marylin
Ditto to Veronica…
((huge hugs))
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Taz
ditto to both Veronica and Marylin
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Junebug
You looked so good when you were pregnant and pink and all round belly and red in your hair!
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upto6only
nice entry to this week’s theme
Scout's Honor
So what does one do when your family finds your anonymous blog and give you the silent treatment for over 2 months now in those different states?
Funny thing is I am not sorry about the things I wrote even though I dutifully edited them out.
Sigh.
I always wonder if a blood tie and common childhood makes it worth it to have people in my life so are so polemically different from me, take offense at a dime, and can hurt me like no others..
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Paul U
You got a lovely family here!
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Allie
My dad used to drive a Saab. The turbo would vibrate the house when he would pull into the driveway. My stomach would turn immediately.
Still does.
Jennifer S^N
I get you. I really get you.
Sherry at EX Marks the Spot
What an interesting take on this week’s theme. Way to go!
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Brita
Great post for the theme
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Tanya
So true. My family are a little more strained, by my partners family are exactly as you described, and they stick together no matter what.
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And Miles To Go...(Bridget Nowak Brewer)
I can COMPLETELY relate to this post this week in my life. Well said…
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HappyCampers
*hugs* sorry if something fresh happened to make you feel this way again….
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Jen
I totally know what you’re going through. This happened to me Sunday, after talking with my mom on the phone. What kills me the most? How they’ve thrown the word loyalty around like they know the meaning of it. And clearly, crystal clearly, they do not and never shall.
I hope you feel better soon!
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Athena
Yep, I hear ya. I’ve spent the last few days feeling physically ill over family issues even though I live on the other side of the planet. Sigh.
long distance hugs and a whole lotta love,
~A
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Elaine
I love the way you just put your heart right out there. This post really hit home with me, as I’m sure it does for a lot of people. Here’s to the hope that we can both find healing for our wounded hearts…
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Michelle
It’s so hard to have people expect you to stay how you were 20, 12, 5, even 1 year ago. When you know you have changed.
I find that with friends I went to school with (and some family), I am so not the person I was then. I am now really secure in my identity and who I am. Maybe they find that a threat and don’t want to admit it, I don’t know.
Sam
Family always makes thing complicated. Not better or worse but complicated. I’m sorry if you’re hurting. I’ve been there too.
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Rachael
What an amazing post. (Hugs)
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SECRET AGENT MAMA
Oh, how do I ever get this. On so many levels, that’s how.
Let me know if you need me. Always here for you!
Out-Numbered
Great Stuff!!! I’ll be back…
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Al_Pal
Oh, dude, YOU’RE the cute punk rock preggo? Well done! Heh. Assuming comments are accurate.
I was gonna say, “that cute punk rock preggo is wearing a belly ring!” because I have the same little jewelry bump under my shirts. Heh. (but no baby bump. I’m stickin with tha Auntie scene, AT LEAST for now!!!) ;p
Awesome!
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