• I don’t know that I’ve ever read a post title that more perfectly – or poignantly – captures the writing therein.

    December 22, 2011
  • I have a picture I carry in my wallet. It was taken on December 11th, 1980. She was stillborn that day. 11lbs. Perfectly formed – perfect in every way but one. She never took a breath. Stillborn. Something about the cord being over her shoulder.

    She would be 31 years old now. You know that keening feeling? It never goes away. And you know what? I don’t think it’s supposed to. It’s how we remember – it’s how we love – it’s how we wrap our arms around those who are here with us and thank God for every breath they take, because there are others who aren’t, and can’t.

    It’s okay, Lotus. It’s the way it’s supposed to be for those of us who have had little ones slip away.

    December 22, 2011
  • Lunasea

    It’s true…you have to let the pain move through you, and let it come out when it needs to. You’re the only one who knows what it needs to do.

    December 22, 2011
  • Unfortunately Christmas time not always brings back good memories ! Just let your grief go it’s way.

    December 23, 2011
  • I understand holding onto the pain. I’m glad you can find joy in the season too.

    December 23, 2011
  • I love you.

    December 16, 2012
  • Tony Utter

    I didn’t really know anything about this until the other day. Sadly, it was at a time when people were being completely uptight over something completely stupid. I don’t know what it is like to go through what you did, but I wish you and your family the best this Christmas.


    December 16, 2012
  • Dana Moyer

    I’ve never seen this post before now Lotus. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby. I hope that time will help to heal the hole this left in your life.

    (Hugs) Dana

    December 16, 2012
  • Christine

    Hugging you from over here, Buttercup. xoxox

    December 16, 2012
  • Amen, sister, amen!

    December 16, 2012
  • Wow Lotus, I had no idea.

    I’m not going to pretend to know what it’d be like to be in your shoes because, a) I don’t have kids of my own and b) I’ll never be a mother. All I can imagine is it would be very hard thing to deal with and my thoughts are with you.

    Have a great holiday season.

    December 16, 2012
  • Greer

    Love you.

    December 16, 2012

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